[tinker.bell]

In 10 hours I'll be at school, I'm dreading it. The butterflies are in my stomach, my heart rate is increasing, every possible negative is coming into my head. It'll be the first time I will've seen my ex in 3 weeks. His attitude of being totally rude to me and pretending I don't exist is doing me no favours. My art exam starts, meaning I've got a time restraint. Just the thought of that is making me incredibly nervous. Prep for my gcse's start, as well as being totally isolated from all my friends. Great.

When I get a panic attack at home, i can deal with it. Over the holidays my anxiety has got worse, I don't know wether the lack of routines is affecting me, or my anxiety is increasing. Certain noises are affecting me, and having people too close to me. I'm scared I'm going to forget something, that everyone will judge me if I don't look nice on the first day. All these thoughts are going round and round in my head and I can't sleep when I should be. I'm making lists in my head, my morning routine, my route to school, what to put in my bag. It's doing my head in