[shortandcute]

I've had some problems keeping up with my mortgage in the last few months because I've had to put large amounts of money into immediate emergency repairs (namely the plumbing). Well, I've had to fill out some paper work and my mortgage company and I are trying to come up with a solution. Well, as a technicality, a man was supposed to come over to evaluate the house and I was (am, really) supposed to be home because he needed to take some pix inside the home. Well, I have not told my daughter (who's 18) or anyone else in my family--and there's a reason for that: long story. My daughter is spending the day with my sister, but sis lives right next door and when ever somebody that they don't recognize comes over, they all want a detailed explanation of everything. I don't really want to talk to my family, especially sis, about this whole thing yet, because she freaks out so easy and it makes me nervous. My daughter does too. And I really don't want to deal with their anxiety attacks right now. So I am at the library right now, and plan on acting like I have no idea why this guy came by in case they ask why he was there. I know that's terrible. I am going to have to deal with this sooner or later.

I bought this house against my better judgement; I let my sisters talk me into it. They thought that if I owned my own home, that that would somehow make me more "normal." I have talked about selling it off and on for several years now, because it was just too much for me, with dealing with repairs and all. But my oldest sister would start panicking because they have THEIR garden in my yard and THEIR exercise equipment stored in my basement, and they did not want to have to figure something else--SO I would let her talk me into keeping it. I really didn't want to say anything to anyone until I was a little more sure about things.

Now, I'm freaking out because of what my daughter mite say--like wanting to know who this guy was, and why I didn't tell her and why wasn't I there.

I'm such a dunce!!!

[kaliope]

funny how anxiety makes us avoid so many situations but then just creates more anxiety for us in avoiding those situations. sounds like you were bullied into something you didn't want and your sisters are enjoying it more than you are. you get to live with the daily anxiety of it. weigh that daily anxiety of living in a home that is too much for you against the momentary anxiety of standing up to your sisters and decide which you would rather have. sure it will be briefly intense while getting out from under the house, but then you will be free. wont that be worth it? think about it. take care.

[shortandcute]

good point

[browning]

i know what u mean my ex gf use to work at a store i would always avoid i was afraid she was going to beat me up or hit me or something. im glad she quit working there