[scstateofmind]

i guess i got ahead of myself and posted my life story in my introduction! i guess i will just go over a few of my "issues" since this is technically the correct forum. i started having mental health problems in the fall of 2013. this was what i had been told to be my hardest semester in college. i lost touch with my dad around this time as well. i had issues and went to doctors and specialists and was eventually given medicine for anxiety (zoloft, the smallest mg, not sure how much that is). i had god AWFUL side effects the first couple of days but stuck with it because i wanted to keep moving forward because i would rather die than feel the emotions i did last semester. my friend savannah says she started noticing problems around the same time. elevated mood to depressed mood to chill mood. easily irritated to the point of blatant anger by things such as hearing people breathe/eat or someone tapping their pen. i didn't realize my behaviors were drastic when she said something, but i guess I can understand it now. i quit my zoloft cold turkey (i know its bad) and had no withdrawal symptoms. never went to a counselor while i was on it because i was too consumed by school. i often have thoughts of dying (feels weird to even type this, no one knows) and can remember feeling like i wanted to die all the way back to high school. doctors appointment monday, will keep y'all posted!

[live2ski66]

Glad you are seeing a doctor. It's the first step in recovery. Good luck!