Sex scares me a lot...like a lot. If anybody touches anywhere on my upper thigh or lower waist I will literally scream or panic...even cry. It makes me uncomfortable to think about shoving something up there.
I have been sexually assaulted when I was a teenager, I am now in my 30's, I have had 1 man in my life and now got rid of him because he was a sex mad man.

From being a teenager I have had depression through this and have been on medication from then too.
I really think from the assault has caused me to have this problem I think now I really do need help.

I am hoping that I am not alone with this problem, really kills me everyday.

[Idiot17]

I too am frightened, though i would freeze up and blank out rather then scream and cry. So i guess you're not alone in that.

[greyroom]

I also have a fear of physical intimacy and probably even emotional.

Yet another thing to add to the list :/

I am also in early 30's and wonder if I will ever have a regular life or die a crazy recluse.

you're not alone.

[Smedley]

How are you with men as friends, ladygunn3r?

[ladytiger]

i have sexual issues and my legs clam up when my bf and i have sex. when i was a teen, a guy i met offline whom i had a high attraction to took my virginity never even asked me if i wanted to have sex just assumed. later on, the problems started with other guys who would ram it in it was just nothing but yelling telling them that hurts! it was argument after argument blaming me. even fingering was an issue for me not so much now and i am 28.

my legs would clam up due to objects coming near me down there. a gyno i used to have told me to see a sex therapist really?!? who has money for that? i am looking for something that i can do on my own. having guys as friends in the past was a disaster for me they always had racist ideologies in the closet until i found out later. my bf was my best friend when we first met before we started dating the only one! i could be friends with a gay guy no problem but not a str8 guy there seems to be some kind of 'you owe me' attitude

[JadeAmethyst]

There is a PTSD forum and survivor's forum that may be helpful here also. I am so sorry you are all having these issues. Maybe this would be a place you could share and get some ideas for your recovery.
Sexual intimacy is such a precious gift, I hope you will be able to recover, and get the help and support you need.

Sincerely
Jade