Well, it's been a year and a half and I finally got up the nerve to ask my therapist about Transference and what she believes about it. I've been so afraid to ask because my inner kid is so sensitive to rejection even if it's mild. And seems like every time a therapist (I've had several and hospital) talks about transference they have to remind that it's important to make it on my own some day, and that I'm not a child anymore, and that talking about transference is to prepare to have relationships outside therapy, and all that, etc. etc. ad nausum. And my inner child just felt like she would die if T said anything like that, or if she might in the future.
But T was so gentle, and said it was all OK to feel and to have those thoughts, that I should be sure to tell her if anything seems overbearing or scary. I thought she could handle Transference feelings, but I had to hear her say it. It's funny how the child in us has to hear someone SAY the words. I think everything will work out much more smoothly now, but I still wish therapy would never end.
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