[birdpumpkin]

I'm just really feeling I'm getting unable to cope with all that's going on in my life. Fire over with months ago, in new house - I thought things would die down and I could get on with life. Late property taxes finally paid off. But now I'm driving myself mad with money worries. To add to that, we've started ADHD treatment for my son and really can't afford it. My parents have been insisting and constantly on me about it, so I finally said okay, we'd start. Medicines are going to have to be tweeked around til we find something and a dosage that works, but we can't afford to keep buying medicine after medicine til we find one that does. We just don't have it. All we have is out-of-pocket from the weekly paycheck. We finally got our taxes paid and off our backs yesterday, but I can't even feel relieved about it. I'm stressing about how we're going to pay for all this. On top of it, I'm not really even comfortable with it. We tried medication for this 5 years ago, and my son just turned into a zombie. Sat around and colored and picked at his fingers. Seemed sad and really nervous. I took him off after 2 days and left it at that. It wasn't my son at all. He's active and full of life. Sings and "plays" his guitar, runs around in the yard, likes to wrestle his dad... His behavior doesn't bother me. He's not so bad he's bouncing off the walls or anything, and I don't want his personality to change. To me he seems happy and is just an ornery little boy. This is mostly to help with his learning as he's not doing well in school. He's going into the 4th grade - had 2 years of preschool. He's a very slow learner, maybe because of the ADHD but also has some mild mental impairments and Asperger's that I'm sure are coming into play as well, and is still actually on a first grade level. So I'm afraid what's going to happen when he starts the medicine. The doctor is insisting I keep in touch this time, though, so we can change medicines or dosages til we find one that works well with him. This is all stressing me out, and I'm so worried about how we're going to even pay for all this. My son does have a CHiPs card, which helps with the visits, but now we're going to be getting even more bills, etc. I'm up early because I was just lying in bed going over all this in my head. I just don't seem to get any relief from anything. One thing is dealt with, then there's something else. I've started to let the house go, only doing little things, and my hair needs washed... I'm picking at myself and feel I'm about to lose it. My mom thinks I could use a light nerve pill. I would love one, but yeah, can't afford it. When will things settle down??

[CANDC]

Sorry to hear you are overwhelmed. We will get through this somehow.

[PrairieCat]

One way to do this is to see if your doctor can provide free drug samples to you at first. Some doctors are able to do this. Also, you must go through your doctor, but most all drug companies have what they call an "indigent program" for those who cannot afford a medication. You fill out a form for the drug co. which is faxed to your doctor. Then after it is filled out with your income (and maybe your expenses), it is faxed back to the drug co. for approval.
GOOD LUCK!