[summerblueskies]

I thought I was doing really well today. It was moving day today, packing and planning pretty much all day today, so that was emotionally and physically demanding at times. I was so proud of myself that I didnt have one single panic attack. If I felt too stressed I just went outside and got some fresh air and went back to work. But tonight had a very bad panic attack. I was vomiting, shaking and my heart was pounding, I felt a general sense of dread.I might have fallen but I think it was just my tripping on a step - not sure. Was I making progress, or somehow just "saving up" the nervous energy for one big panic attack later? I also barely ate, bad I know, we were just so busy. I wanted today to be a good day but did I somehow mess it up at the end? This isnt the first time.

[my melody]

First of all, it isn't your fault for having a panic attack and I'm really sorry you experienced such a bad one. I think you did really well through out the day. It sounds like you did just about everything you needed to do to keep yourself calm and from getting upset. It sounds like the only thing that could have been better is making sure to eat, but you realized that yourself. Honestly, it sounds like you've made a lot of progress if you're able to know what you need to do and implement it like you were during the day. I don't know why you had that panic attack at night but you certainly shouldn't blame yourself for it at all. You did really well during the day, focus on that. *hugs*