Having a nervous breakdown

I feel totally out of control, that I not in control of my body or brain. It has been getting worse the last couple of days, but tonight it is hitting me like a freight train. I am lost within myself. I won't go to the hospital but I do have a doctor's appointment in about 2 days, I hope I can hold out until then.

I have been using sleeping pills to try to control myself but they have little effect and are probably making the situation even worse.

I have no idea about what to do, so I decided to post on PC and hope for the best. My wife has lots of pills maybe I should try some of hers.

I am sinking fast and I hate it.

I am sorry you are having these feelings. I would not take any more pills, you never know how they might affect you. I would try deep breathing and maybe a walk might help until you get in to see your doctor. I wish you well. You are not alone. Breath in the good thoughts, exhale the bad!

Grand Magnate, simple but effective methods (I hope).

I slept for 2 hours straight, it's usually only an hour.
I just took all my meds for the day in one shot about 10 minutes ago. Not a good idea normally, but it often works, so perhaps some my meds need higher dosages for them to become more effective.

Thank you for your comment.

1 response out of 272 readers is very disheartening.

Hi Ripose.I'm sorry you feel out of control, but you are more in control than you think, if not you wouldn't be able to write and speak as good as you do.Please don't you are alone cause you're not.my internet is out but I'm using my phone to check in.Please calm down and you will get through this.

Yes I have calmed down quite bit for now anyway. We'll see how it progresses into the evening when it is usually the worst.

I took all my regular pills for the day plus a couple of extra sleeping pills it seems to be working for now.

Going to try to relax and watch a little TV now.

Ripose,
I hope the T.V. takes your mind away from things for at least a while. Sometimes when we feel overwhelmed an hour can seem like a week, I know the feeling. 2 days .... and tomorrow 1 day... I am pointing out the obvious I know but if you can break it down like that. I am sorry I am not of any help to you, just to let you know that you are not on your own, even if it feels like that.

Best wishes. keep us posted.

Pierro, thanks for the comment every little bit helps.

Every bad thought I have ever had is stalking me tonight, I think everyone is out to get me, no wait, they ARE out to get me. I hear a lot sirens at night and I am instantly terrified that they will be pounding on my door to arrest me. I am visibly shaking and sweating, my mouth is dry, and my eyes scratchy and bloodshot.

I know that nobody here really cares, at least not on this forum. But here I am anyway, describing a panic that I have never experienced in my life. I guess it will be like the past 30 years of my life. Nobody cares, not my family, "friends", or Doctors. I should be used to it by now but at least with the Internet I can try to release some pressure by writing about it.

I am so scared and get even more scared because I don't know what is making me feel this way. It is 4:30 am here now and I will see my doctor at 3:30 pm. I am desperately hoping she will be able to help me.

Life sucks sometimes.

Hello, Ripose. May your doctor help you escape from this terrible malaise.

I wish you well.

Thank you Glok.

Let us know how you get on. It's not too far away now, Ripose.....

Best wishes

I've been suffering from panic attacks for years.When the first started, I thought I was going crazy. But after seeing a pdoc and understanding what was going on, I wasn't so frightened. I'm on Klonopin and Paxil and it has helped tremendously.

Thinking of you. Hope the doctor appointment goes well.


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Hi Ripose.I hope you are feeling better this afternoon.I pray that find peace because it is there You are loved and wanted.You are here on this earth for a reason.Please don't give up.The lord hand is on .

The above might apply to someone who believes in God, I don't.

Well my doctor increased 2 of my meds and is contemplating adding Abilify. I see her again on Friday, so we'll see how things are going then.

Hi Repose.How are you?You said you were going back to the dr.I hope you doing better on this too hot of a summer day.

How are you doing, Ripose? Honestly, at the worst of a breakdown that began last autumn, I found TV a lifesaver. It was a distraction and watching my favorite characters made me feel safe. Also, try not to take it personally if you don't get too many replies on your posts right off...I don't understand that about PC...I've started a post and see many views, but no replies. Of course, it's tempting to be hurt and disappointed when that happens, but I suspect that many people on this forum are just overwhelmed with their own problems and not always up to replying to posts right off.

Hi everyone, thanks for your kind replies.

My doc increased my risperidone from 3 to 5 mg and possibly an additional mg next week. She also increased my Ativan from 3 to 4 mg.

So far the difference has been quite amazing, as in the nervous breakdown has stopped.

Now if I can just break my OTC pain killer abuse I will be in whole new world. I am a chronic substance abuser in one form or another, if I actually ever felt "normal" my head would probably explode!

Have a good day/night all!

Glad you're nervous breakdown stopped. I'm not on risperidone but it sounds like a good medication.

Yes it is great for a lot of things like delusions and unusual suspicions which were greatly contributing to my breakdown. The major problem most people have with it is weight gain, but I've actually lost 30 lbs since I've been on it. Hopefully the dose increase won't reverse my weight loss.

Ripose, I am so glad that you are doing well, and that the meds are working well for you...
Best wishes..

Hi ripose

I am glad things have improved for you a little. I understand that feeling like you are braking, I get it a lot too. Sometimes I feel like I am going completely insane and much more and I am going straight over the edge. It comes and goes though so be sure to take care of yourself and monitor how you are doing.

We are always here if you need to talk.

Take care and be kind to yourself x