[badjuju89]

Hey all. So im new to this thing. This is my first post.. basically ive been online all night doin some pokin around the interweb researchin some things, im contemplating a med change. Since I was 9 I was thought to have had severe depression but turns out I have bipolar type 2 so I found out after I bought a 2014 kia during a manic episode this past year then crashed. Lol. Glad I found out now rather than later.

Ive always struggled with anxiety as well but not as bad as I have recently. And it seems to be worsening out of no where. Im on two anti anxiety meds. First time ive ever been on anxiety meds ever in my life. ive always had fears but never like this. Its getting out of control. Im gonna talk to my therapist about it come tuesday and call my doc to see if I can move my appt up early but I havent had anything happen to me to cause this.. so idk where its coming from or why its happening... its getting debilitating... i know its irrational and its just my brain but my brain is winning.. but im competitive and a sore loser so its tickin me off..

anyone else have this come out of nowhere????

[kaliope]

I bought my kia in 2008 during a mania....its been a good car so far...I showed it to my psychologist and that's when he had the conversation with me about hospitalization....lol.

I also have major anxiety...I take buspar for it because I didn't like depending on the addictive nature of the benzos....it works fairly well, but still sometimes the anxiety has become overwhelming.....but I have ptsd as well and my anxiety stems from that and my therapist not addressing my trauma issues. they were screaming to be treated and he was avoiding them. now I am with a trauma therapist and my anxiety is much less.

take care.

[badjuju89]

My parents have since bought the kia from me. And have been very supportive in this for me. I also have anxiety and ptsd.. I cant take buspar.. bad reaction. But im on two other anxiety meds and its still pretty bad. Ive been through some intense trauma treatment. So im not sure why my its becoming worse out of no where. But im going to talk to my doc and therapist about it more. I appreciate the feedback though. Im gonna look into focusing on it more in my therapy sessions I think. Try to get to the bottom of it. I dont like living in a constant hypervigilant state and in fear.. its exhausting. But thank you