[Shriveled Muse]

For me, university starts 5 days from now and the first thing I do is a music audition in front of 5 profs.

I'm so anxious that I feel the nervous energy even while I'm suppressing the usual emotions, not just for the audition, but the atmosphere of school in general. If I weren't suppressing, then I would definitely have panic attacks and the last thing I want is my family finding out about my instability.

I need to prepare for this audition, but I can't seem to focus or work at all. Everything is just piling up and I'm just getting more and more anxious every day. The stress seems to be accumulating exponentially. Furthermore, just thinking about school.... I don't know how I'll survive. Hearing the music that goes around constantly in the building will surely trigger the anxiety; I don't know if I'll be able to handle it, much less keep this mask on.

I've never dreaded school like this before.... I've never had something more to fear.... Especially when I'll have biweekly sessions when I'll be put on the spot in one-on-one and group lessons.... Any advice?
(I posted this on the school and study issues forum, but no one replied )

[Ripose]

Try to imagine playing in a situation of your choosing. Perhaps in the woods on a beautiful summer day and as you begin to play the gentle creatures of the forest come out to listen. You look out upon them and they are moving in time with the music, some are dancing. And you notice 2 rabbits holding each other close with tears of joy upon their cheeks.
You play for this audience as you have never played before, every note is perfect and you feel great peace and contentment. As the tune comes to an end all the animals gather round your feet to say thank you urging you play more. It is a perfect moment that no one wants to end, and you smile.

Of course use any pleasant imagery you want in place of mine.

Good luck!

[Mustkeepjob32]

Ripose that imagery was beautiful, thank you for that.