Anxiety about getting help

I've recently went to a metal health clinic and I've only been there for two days, but I'm suppose to go back to decide what kind of support plans and groups I'll decide I want to enter in, but I can't help but get major anxiety about going back because it will mean I need to make changes to my lifestyle, like getting out of the house and driving around or getting my family suspicious of why I have to leave every 2 weeks or so many months to where they'll believe is no where.

I don't know how to wrap my mind around it and feel encouraged enough to continue my search for help.

it is unfortunate that you don't feel your family will be supportive that you are getting help for yourself. couldn't you say you are going to get a pedicure or a massage or something? or just going to the park to get away and relax, going for a walk to get some exercise. change is difficult but it is well worth it. take care.

No because I can't afford to always be going anywhere, since I don't have a job. Saying something like that will give them suspicion because they know it's something I don't do. Not to mention I have no privacy from because they have no trust or respect for me. It's difficult for me since I have no family to support or care.

Can a therapist at the mental health clinic help you choose what treatments/groups would best suit you?

Yeah, I'm going to one and working things out with them. It's just keeping it from my family is the most of my concern.

You need to do what is best for you hun and not worry what they will think. If you need to, tell them that you need to do what is best for you and that you will inform them of what you are doing when you are ready to do so. That in the mean time that you are purely doing what is needed to be done for yourself and that you expect support of making your own decisions. Sure it will leave them wondering and possibly confused, but later you will realize you left them feeling like that and hopefully then will be able to open up to them completely. Maybe even by opening up that you are doing what is best for you, you may be able to get it all out at once. But, do not worry about what they think too much as it is what is best for you and you that matters right now.

Is there a particular reason you can't be honest about what is going on? I used to try to hide my panic attacks from my husband and I saw a therapist for a while and he taught me that sharing my feelings and thoughts was not a bad thing. When I opened up, I was very surprised at how responsive he was. He didn't run away! He still married me and we are still together.
It's hard to have a family that's not supportive. I have some family members that know what go on with me, but I know they think I'm just crazy. But what they think of me is none of my concern.
I hope you get the support you need. And a great treatment plan!

Can I ask why you don't want your family to know?

Well them being strict and religious, they believe they know every answer to life and that something as a mental illness is something we make up for attention, they would say. If I told them I had any problems with myself mental, they'll probably get angry and tell me to believe there's nothing wrong with me or tell me to force myself to think I'm normal and it's some dark entity, like the 'devil' that's making me think that way.

I just can't handle being brought down with there closed mindedness and the 'truth' as they'd put it, when it's just a bunch of text they quote from the bible so it make is seem their wise when they're really not using their brains to just think about it instead.

They'll only criticize and judge anyways. Or even worse just disown me like they threatened when I asked them what they thought about me telling them I had thoughts of suicide one time. They didn't care and that's enough evidence for me to know they don't love me or act like they'd care for me if I did tell them. They'll just tell me to get over myself and forget about it. They have no sympathy for me because they want all their lives to feel normal if mine would just stay normal like theirs.

I'm sorry; that's really tough. I told my siblings and asked they not share it with anyone. That didn't happen. They told their significant others. They didn't tell me they did this. I asked them if they did and they said they needed to share it with someone - it was too hard not talking to someone about it.

Then they started challenging me... "Why are you still taking meds?" "Why are you still seeing a therapist?" "You need to change therapists because this one isn't helping." They just didn't get it. After a particularly deep episode that put me in the hospital I allowed them to talk with my pdoc. They have a better understanding now and are much more supportive.

Are you old enough to or do you live on your own? If you are out of the house then just don't tell them. If you are still living at home, just do what you need to do to take care of you and don't feel obligated to tell them. If they ask, say something like ..."I was taking care of something." and try to leave it at that. If they push just stick to "I was taking care of something. You don't need to worry about it."

I wish you luck.

Hello!
I haven't been in that situation but I can feel how you feel. I can get where you're coming from 100%.
I know it's hard. I know it feels very difficult. But I totally believe in you. You CAN walk into the clinic. You CAN start going to the groups. It will make you feel so much better. Yes changes are uncomfortable but if you're doing something that you feel benefits you, that is wonderful. That type of change will improve your life.
Do your parents not know you're seeing the clinic? Are you afraid they might not support it?
If you know they are against it, I believe you should still go. If they don't know your situation and problems, I advise you to talk to them. I am sure they will understand that you want to get help and improve yourself and make yourself happier.

You can do this. <3