[bwkeys45]

Is that even a thing? I can't stop rocking back and forth, I'm shaky and lightheaded, I can't eat, I'm panicky, my best friend just tried to kill herself and I'm convinced that it's my fault because I have this stupid panther in my head that kills things and it tried to kill her or maybe I am just a terrible friend and it's all my fault and I'm trying to pass off the blame on being crazy. I didn't go to school today, but I think I might go for my last class because I can't afford to miss it. My mind is going 568720 km a minute so I don't even know if I could understand anything my teacher says. Yesterday I believed in God and I went to church and it had to be a Catholic church but I just sat outside and talked to myself. I am going crazy. What do I do? I can't miss school because it will ruin my life.

[3xjj]

Your friend attempting suicide is traumatic. It sounds like you are having a normal reaction to a severely traumatic event.

Make yourself go to school even if you can't think. Routine and structure are good.

I understand the severe pain you are in. Is there anyone you can talk to? If not, maybe a priest or minister could listen.

It is not your fault that your friend attempted suicide. It has nothing to do with what's in your head. It has to do with the severe pain she is in. She wants to escape the pain. Speaking as someone who has wanted to end my life before, there is nothing anyone could do to help me. When I hurt, there is virtually no way to soothe me. When you can, let her know that you are there for her. Don't blame yourself (that is also a "normal" reaction though).

[Disorder7]

You need help. I wouldn't worry about classes today. I'd try to get the make-up work tomorrow.
Since you are in school, is there a counselor? Someone there who will listen to you?

[Shining]

I have been a teacher for years. If you are in school.....whether HS or College....there are social workers. Walk in there and talk to them - they will help you.