[littlebear40]

Why hello, I must warn that this has gotten and can get quite dark at times. I have GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and Depression. But as of lately I've developed an obsessive driven anxiety filled disease that most don't know about it's interfered with my home, work and school life especially.

Hypochondria is the preoccupation with health, whether it be physical or mental all people who have this condition driven themselves mad with the thought that they are seriously ill.

My condition has to do with a headache that's plagued me for a couple weeks, with frequent (actually two) doctors visit he ruled out anything fatal or ominous (Cancer is my largest fear, especially brain, pancreas or lung as they are most deadly) I thought I had brain cancer and I was dying over a simple headache! With some strong pain meds it vanished fast, as well as trying to eat regularly and sleep well both of which I don't do well

I'm currently not on anxiety meds (or antidepressants) or seeing a professional with no real friends or family I'm not comfortable to share this with them. (I have one friend but she doesn't live near me!)

When I read about a disease, like even something wild like MS or Cystic Fibrosis (which I've had to do for a project I've been avoiding) I feel somehow through others that I'm fatally ill and my days are numbered as well as that I have ailments that are normal (back pain from sitting all day for example) or completely imagined like pain in head which I can fathom out of nowhere

I should mention I'm only 18 years old and fairly healthy except for weight and nothing runs in family, I just REALLY wanted to open up to anyone willing to help me as I feel very lost and it's very late where I am!

[Jolisse]

Have you thought of seeing a therapist? You can learn to change the way you think about your health and fear of disease.