Need a little help please

I post here since in the other section I haven't received any reply yet so if you want please delete the thread in the other section. So:
My life is a mess. Really. I hate myself. I'm shy, I have very very very low self-esteem, I feel weak, useless and sometimes I can't defend myself when others attacking me physically or verbally, socially awkward, too kind with the other and they profit of this, incapable to make new relationship and new friends (I have very few friends and none of them is a true friend that care of me) I have lots of paranoia too. These are ruining my life. I always feel inferior to the other person, I feel ugly (I have acne that ruin my face), no confidence in myself, incapable to impress others, I always think I smell bad (this is a paranoia for sure since I take a shower everyday but if someone near me start to gasp I go in paranoia and I finish ruining the day). This is enough? No, I'm gay too. Although I'm finally accepting this because this is the nature I am and I cannot change it , here where I live is still a negative thing and I don't talk about this with anyone. I want really bad someone to love and loves me. I feel alone , an empty person. Really mates, my life sucks. I want to change . I want to be like the other guys at my age that are always happy, full of friends, not shy, no paranoia and that enjoy their lives. I feel like I'm wasting precious time of my life that will never come back. Sorry for my bad English but I'm not from UK. Cheers
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I replied to your thread in the men's forums, just so you know. Sorry I didn't see it before.

Hi mate . Thank you for the reply. I answer here because I think this is the correct section for my problems.
However, no, I haven't talked yet with a professional about my problem because I am not comfortable to talk regarding my problems with a person in real life and that's why I joined this community.
Actually being gay is almost a non-issue for me. I'm finally accepting myself. It's only that with my self-esteem and paranoia problems is really difficult to build both love relationships and make new friends.
Cheers mate

Deciding you need help and support is the first step. We can give you support, recommend options, but there are times when therapy is in your best interests. Keep on posting until you feel ready to share with someone face to face.

No one can give you yesterday back, so instead focus on making tomorrow a better experience.

Hi mate. I will do my best to making tomorrow a better experience . Thank you

I am sorry to read of you struggles, newguy93. My personal opinion is that much mental anguish comes from wanting our lives to be other than what they are. As such, the most radical thing we can do may be to learn to accept ourselves as we are & our lives the way they are... at least of the moment... (not that we can't work to improve our lives in the future, of course.) You mention that you are gay & that you're coming to accept this. (I'm an older transgender person.) So it sounds as though you have already made a start. I celebrate that beginning! My very best wishes to you...

Hi mate.
Yes this may be a beginning. Hope I can get rid of all my paranoia also. Thank you

You are losing hope, i suggest you should do those things that gives you, peace pleasure and happiness, if you don't what they then you should try to find where are you interested.

Things you should stop right now -
Stop Negative Thinking
Stope Reading Negative Quotes, books, stories (Read Some motivation things)
Stop listening sad songs (Use peaceful, rock, jazz music, i recommend Indian flute music)
Social Networking Can Reduce Your Peace Reduction in social networking use.

There are many things in the world to enjoy and everything is easy, say to your self it's easy chase, it's easy to face, it's easy live, it's easy to survive, everything is easy, say everything is easy until you don't believe everything is easy.

Everyting is easy!

Just start saying to yourself "Everything Is Easy"

Thank you for support mate. I will listen your advice and I will se how it goes.

As bad as things feel in any particular moment, they will change. That's the good news. The difficult moments are not permanent or forever.
When I feel bad, sometimes I cannot remember it will pass. But it always does.
And also, thoughts are just thoughts. Feelings are just feelings. They are not who you ultimately are.
Inside you, there are gifts.

Hope it will pass mate. I'm tired to waste all my youth with these f*cking paranoia.
Really hope this bad moment pass and in the coming years will be just a bad memory.

i agree with everyone especially flockpride!!!