[Swaggyfishsticks]

From june- November 2014, I only left the house once. Since then,I've left the house once a week for therapy. I'm terrified of being any where except my room. I can barely go to therapy. I never sleep the night before therapy, not even a minute. This is too much for me to take. The thought of going anywhere is enough to make me unbelievably anxious. Then the ****ed up intrusive thoughts start. I need help, something neither my dipshit therapist or psychiatrist can give me. I need advice.

[kaliope]

i understand where you are coming from, yet i do not have it that bad. i have my safe zones. my apartment, my car, and work. outside of that, i am really uncomfortable. there are days i feel like if i step over my threshold the sun will dissolve me into dust. i have a class in another town on saturday and i was saying repeatedly "i dont want to go" to t the other day and she actually raised her voice at me saying "stop it, stop it, stop it". i still dont know how to deal with that. i go to the store two times per month to pick up my meds and that is when i shop. i prepare myself for two weeks telling myself that on that particular saturday i will be going to the store and compiling my grocery list and visualizing the parts of the store i will be going to. whenever i go anywhere i need this couple weeks notice to visualize what i will be doing and see it as safe or i wont be able to go. my t wants me to get out more, but i have no problem being holed up in my house. i get socialization at work.

i am sorry you are struggling so much. i hope you can find something that helps.

[avlady]

i have agorophobia to a certain extent too. i think that is what it is called. i do drive into the city sometimes when my husband is driving, i don't drive myself as i never got a licence. i basically am home doing housework and have no friends left where i live because all of them moved away 2 years ago. i go online alot, pray like there's no tomarrow, it gives me a sence of purpouse. i was volunteering at an elderly care facility for 2 years but then got sick and stopped. i like being in my home, we have a huge backyard and i sit in it in the summertime and we have fires in our firepit. it really brings my mood up to be outside, but otherwise i'm lost not being at home. i wish you luck and will pray for both of us too.

[lucami]

well from what you wrote it's not social anxiety, social anxiety is 'a discomfort or a fear when a person is in a social interaction that involves a concern of being judged or evaluated by others'. Fear of going anywhere besides 'safety place' is agoraphobia. and I'm having it too, been in exactly situation like you so you are not alone I couldn't go out of my room for about year, but now I'm feeling more comfortable around home, I can go for a walk with my dog, not too far, but that's always something kaliope knows how scared I was yesterday before today's appointment but I survived and can give you some tips

what works for me, first working out at home, let's say 10-15 min at least 3-4 times per week, drinking water, meditation (with time it can really help calm mind), mindfulness. when I have to go somewhere, like today, I'm taking med with walerian, headphones in the ears and I square breath and listen to people on youtube who talks about dealing with panic attack, it somehow calms me down a bit, maybe because it's something to focus on, or I listen to guided meditation, or play silly games on smartphone. today when I was very anxious while waiting for a doc I was walking all the time through corridor, sitting in a chair without moving isn't good. oh and I was there with my mom, so when you are going somewhere, take a friend or anyone, having real support helps. online support too, if you feel bad just write about it give yourself some time, little steps, and if you for example come back from appointment, but yourself a chocolate, or something nice, I think anxious mind is kind of like a dog, need prizes for good actions, it's a good motivation to carry on.
about intrusive thoughts, just let them be, don't let them scary you. tell yourself 'ok I have this creepy thoughts in my mind, whatever'. I know it's not easy, I had intrusive thoughts everyday, but stopping fear them, stopping fight with them makes them less scary.
besides did you have other T before or you stick with this one? correct me if I'm wrong but from what you wrote I feel like this T doesn't really work for you, maybe you should try to find other, and other kind of therapy? also think about your dreams, plans, if you don't have any, make new one, to have a purpose to get better, I think if you want something really badly, you can overcome fear

I hope things that worked for me would help you too, hugs

Im so sorry you're suffering so much... Have you been diagnosed with agoraphobia? And are you on meds?