[BluesyQ]

Another banner day, folks. Already almost noon and I'm still in my pajamas. I woke up at 3am with paralyzing anxiety, and again at 5 and and then again on and off until about 10. Can't rally and have SO much to do today. Have a job interview for a gig I don't even want but need a job and some s structure desperately.

Just wondering, how do you guys pull yourselves together and get through? I feel like a zombie today. I have no energy. I have no drive. I can't return calls because I don't even have the energy to fake happiness on the phone. I'm crawling in my own skin.

I started 10mg citalopram about a week ago, so far it's just kind of making me spacey and headachey and giving me insomnia, but I am hoping it kicks in soon. Took 30 mg before for a couple of years and I imagine I will increase my dosage eventually.

But right now. . . .man. To quote my own user name - oy veh - this sucks!

Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!! I hope you are all getting off to a better start than I am!

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry you are having such a rough day. I don't really have any advice, as I can pretty much force myself to do what I have to do. My symptoms are not as severe as yours, mainly because my medications are working, but I just wanted to let you know that I care. Vent anytime. It really does help.

[BluesyQ]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I'm sorry you are having such a rough day. I don't really have any advice, as I can pretty much force myself to do what I have to do. My symptoms are not as severe as yours, mainly because my medications are working, but I just wanted to let you know that I care. Vent anytime. It really does help.

Thank you! It's just hard because xanax helps the anxiety but it also makes me feel depressed. So I try to calm my mind on my own and. . . .I am not too good at it (yet!). Hoping my anti-d's kick in soon (it's been almost two weeks) and this gets better! I appreciate your reply!!

[Scribbles22]

I felt like that...for like all of last year after my manic episode. I just plugged along, getting out of the house AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. Kind of treading water that felt like wasn't going to get me anywhere. I feel much better these past couple months. Patience and avoiding drugs, are what I consider my life skills...

[Marla500]

I don't have a a lot of advice, just that when I have things to do, I try to break them down into steps and just focus on as much as I can at one time, then at least I can feel better about getting something done and less is piling up to make me feel worse. I hope you feel better soon, hang in there!

[LifeGetsBetter]

That anxiety buildup upon waking in the morning is the WORST! Panic with heart racing and pounding used to make me hate to be awake. Medication has helped a lot during the past several years, but nothing really makes the anxiety completely go away. I find I can manage it and learn to live with it. But, really, sometimes I get so tired of having this miserable disorder.

[BluesyQ]

Hi Guys,

Just to update you - I definitely got over the hump. Adjusting to new meds really sucked this last time. I am still adjusting but it's been almost 4 weeks so the worst is over. Anxiety is still a huge issue and of course, so is my depression - but I'm not down in the hole anymore. I see the light. With coping skills and the right steps I feel like maybe I can beat this. We all can! Thanks again for your kind words and advice!

[WntMyLfeBck]

That's great news!!!