[ziiz]

I've always had problems being around people, relating to the, understanding them. It started because I was isolated as a child for the first ~8 years of my life. But I was able to enter situations involving people in general without issue.

Rarely worked due to other mental health issues that severely impaired my motivation and interest level in things, etc.

10 months ago I had managed to work for ~3 weeks, no stress from the job and effortlessly succeeding in a technical field, dream job category really.

One day I couldn't leave the house. Everything out there was so.. strange. Nothing in the world could give me the ability to face the strangers out there. For 1 month I spent all the money I had ordering pizza/anything that didn't require leaving the house, after that I was low on money and managed to get myself 5 minutes down the road to get basics such as bread. 3 months after the fact, I left my house properly for the first time and went straight to the GP without an appointment saying I had to see someone and I'll wait as long as necessary.

They weren't able to help or identify the issue, but not having seen sun in 3 months and it was a nice day I sat outside and felt a little better, on the way back I shopped at the supermarket.

It's been 10 months now.

When I walk outside, there is no color but I know what color everything is, my vision is clouded by a dense haze but I see clearly, people are formed from dense whispy smoke but I know their appearance.

What is this? I can't think of anything else.

[kaliope]

i would not say that it is social anxiety at all, but definitely a mental health issue. a GP is not one that is going to be able to assist. getting into a psychiatrist to discuss these symptoms will get you the answers you are seeking. take care.