[jean17]

It is so sad to be so lonely and yet so scared of everyone. When I first wake in the morning I am so grateful if I have no social interactions scheduled for that day and so scared and anxious if I do. This includes Sundays and any other day we have something at church. It's so hard and I can't wait for it to be over so that I can relax.

Anxiety and loneliness never leave me. Such sadness.

this christmas, I could have visited a local choir, been to see a musical version of the nativity, and taken part in a christmas raffle.

so much on in this area, but because I can't interact with people, and the agoraphobia has me housebound, I don't go to any of it

I feel you

[shredded]

Hey! Try watching short films and documentaries on YouTube and listening to some lively music, pop maybe! Talk your heart out to your closed ones and don't think that you'll seem nonsensical to them! The only one that matters is YOU! If you've no one to talk to try writing them down, write them out with no concern of grammar! Try hanging out with your friends! It'll help or you can always have a pet!

Originally Posted by shredded

Hey! Try watching short films and documentaries on YouTube and listening to some lively music, pop maybe! Talk your heart out to your closed ones and don't think that you'll seem nonsensical to them! The only one that matters is YOU! If you've no one to talk to try writing them down, write them out with no concern of grammar! Try hanging out with your friends! It'll help or you can always have a pet!

I really wish I hadn't let my journal go

well I still have it, but writing in it these days is such a chore

dear journal, my life is so horrible. right now, this and this and this is happening

(repeat for all the entries)

just

I can't find anything to write in it because my life is pile of ****

I just turned down a date to join two old friends and make art. Part of it is that it is so cold I don't want to leave the house. Part of it is a measure of depression. Part of it too is that I am embarrassed of the state of my life and that I can't afford the supplies.

[Yzen]

December to me is a bad combination. The weather is dreary. People want to get together to socialize. Family obligations surface. There is numerous situations that come up during the month to feel rejected, left out, trigger social anxiety and feel lonely. I try to think about how a new year is coming and maybe things will change for the better.

[alpacalicious]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

I really wish I hadn't let my journal go

well I still have it, but writing in it these days is such a chore

dear journal, my life is so horrible. right now, this and this and this is happening

(repeat for all the entries)

just

I can't find anything to write in it because my life is pile of ****

Well, even if you'll write negative things, write them. Write everything you are thinking, it's helpful to throw all these thoughts on a piece of paper. I'm keeping a journal so my therapist can read it, she asked me to write down my day and thoughts. So I'm writing more, sometimes I feel bad, I write, I don't feel better. But at least it's like I've put all my thoughts on that journal, so my mind is not racing so much.