[defyinggravity65]

Simply put, I feel like I just have too many issues.
I see a therapist on Monday and I don't even know where to start.
I just have this feeling like I am fundamentally damaged. Unfixable. Beyond hope.
I just feel like I have so many "problems", so many things about myself that I view as unbearable or unforgiveable. I've made so many mistakes and have done stupid things to get attention.
Anybody feel this way?







Note: I am not suicidal in any way, just my thoughts on my current situation.

[Daphnelover]

"broken beyond repair" is how I fear myself to be. but that is not rational. and where is the hope in that? i have to have hope of getting better, even if it's small. as for your upcoming appointment, what i did was write out a letter and i read it at my first appointment. i knew there was no way i'd know what to say once i got there. good luck!

[detfan4life]

You ARE "fixable", and there IS hope, but I know it's hard to see that now. That's ok. You've already been strong for yourself by making that appointment. Don't worry if you feel overwhelmed or aren't sure where to start. I love the idea of writing a letter or a list to help get your thoughts down before you go in. Remember that the therapist is there to support you exactly where you are now. There are no expectations about you having it together or knowing what to say. If you feel hopeless, that's a sign you're in the right place!

I also feel like I have too many issues. Sometimes that feeling is completely overwhelming and I have to use grounded techniques to bring myself down. Reminding myself that I am enough, I have enough, and I'm doing enough helps at those times.

[sintaas]

I feel like this right now, you're not alone. I think most people don't tell others about their problems, and everyone acts like they're fine, meanwhile tons of people are quietly freaking out inside.
When I feel like I'm ****ed in the head, I remember that there's technically no such thing as 'normal'

[hoping76]

I feel exactly the same way. It seems they keep tacking on diagnosis each time too. For years it was oh just depression. Then for awhile just anxiety. Then both. Now its both and panic disorder with manic tendencies. And T is thinking its been a form of bipolar all along. I feel like a basket case!

[avlady]

i used to say i was a basket case too!!!and still do, but i'm not as bad anymore after getting myself help. you are able to help yourself with the help of others like docs and t's. they are supposed to be there for us and many have studied years to help others like us. good luck