I don't know what I am??? I knew I shouldn't of bothered talking to my GP today.

I knew I shouldn't of bothered talking to my GP, My therapist I spoke too couple days ago says I have social anxiety I am still wrapping my head around this in belief, I think I am just avoidance of people cause I just don't enjoy conversation yet I am lonely.

I had anxiety attack yesterday due to unrelated with this, so I talk to my GP today about it as I had blood tests results, she said for someone in their mid 20s is too young to have no friends I do have a partner. She suggested I should go to church to go to make friends no offence I have issues with people believing things they believe in even though I was specific I am not into religion I am slightly spiritual just don't practice.

I don't know why she said I know it's hard but it's an option I need to meet people some reason made me shocked at first to suggest church.

I thought I post here cause someone might tell me they relate?

I avoid most conversations, I have nothing really interesting to talk about I normally sugarcoat my days talk about cause all I do is work and go to bed I am depressed most days I avoid most conversations due to that reason, my best friend used to have I had to cut out of my life cause he was nothing but drama he cared about his problems more than most people, I sat there all the time be his ear for his issues 1 year later I gave it a try he got me to open about mine when he did he had little interest in my depression and got new best friend in a whim tried to play "who wants to fight over me to win the top best friend" I realised he wasn't worth it drifted apart only thing he does is "like" my stuff on Instagram I don't even know why I have it at times that was a year ago.

I hate phone calls if I know you very well I am comfortable, I hate people who harass you with charity I know its there job I have nothing against charity if I was bags worth of money I would help animals but chasing me down the street makes me not trust them ever. I really believe I am hopeless at conversation, people end up finding me boring.

I think why do I exist? I knew I might have social issues I thought I am just avoidance of people cause I get irritated by most people who throw drama at me.

I think I am ranting here cause much I finding my head in disbelief, my Therapist most likely right.

i have problems like depression, grief, biolar etc. my son has social anxiety. we are both medicated too. i understand you don't want to have conversations too. you probably just need to meet people who understand and who know what its like to empathize. be yourself first and in the meantime enjoy life as much as you can, you're still young and have time to live life to its fullest.

Well i think that going at church it will help you because you will find your pease soul there and its positive energy in the curch .