[Artchic528]

I've been texting a guy for the past few weeks and now we're meeting up tomorrow for the first time. I am a nervous wreck over this. I have social anxiety but it usually goes away after the initial hello and some convo has happened. It's just the build-up that kills me. I often just grit my teeth and bare it when meeting new people. However, this being a romantic interest that I met on a dating site? Yeah, it's multiplying my anxiety.

I tried taking a nap but my mind kept wondering to him and the date and gets all twisted in knots. It's like butterflies are ricocheting around my stomach in rapid succession. I know it's normal to feel anxiety before a first date, but this seems a bit more than normal anxiety. I guess that's what having social anxiety is all about.

Anyways, I guess I need ideas on how to untie the knots in my stomach at least a little. Maybe I can look at the list of ideas my therapist gave me to do to help cope with anxiety in the meantime. I have it in a binder in my bedroom for quick access if need be, and this is definitely a "need be".

Thanks for listening to me, and thanks in advance for the advice and support!!

[Artchic528]

Thanks for the hugs, RomanSunburn.

I'm getting more and more anxious. To the point where I can't even think about eating. So I'm just drinking water and other things like that. I'm also constantly going through my dresser and closet, looking and thinking of what to wear. I can't make a solid decision. I'm also, for some reason, obsessively picking at a spot just inside my right nostril, and it's getting a little raw.

Possible trigger:

It's getting to the point where it's raw enough to bleed a little.

The date is at 5 this evening.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Congrats on that first date! I believe I read your post about it in the relationships section. Do you have a PRN you can take before the date? Just a small amount so you're not loopy? If I, or many people were in your position, there would be a lot of anxiety involved as well. I think it's brave what you're doing! Update us after the date and let us know how it went. Good luck to you!

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[Artchic528]

I don't have a PRN for anxiety, per say, but I do have Buspar, which I take on a daily basis. I take one dose in the AM and one in the PM, so I could take my PM dose before I go so I'm not a complete mess.

Thanks!!

[Artchic528]

I took my AM dose of Buspar and felt better for a bit, but now, just thinking about the date, my heart is rattling around in my chest....stupid anxiety...

[Artchic528]

Okay, he texted me earlier today and said that his work was going to go long today and that we had to reschedule the date. I asked him when he'd like to reschedule and he hasn't responded yet. I guess he's engrossed in work.