[Pahoa.guy]

IDK how I'm even growing the pair to post this, I'm so scared, I don't even know where to begin... I'm a small white boy in Hawaii, grew up here, my mother left when I was 16 due to medical reasons, she owned a house here, I've been watching it my whole life, I have anxiety which hurts so bad right now, I have always had pretty bad anxiety preventing me from doing things with my life, I'm 25 now and no progress, I did start a beautiful family of my own, I have a gf with a wonderful 2 yr old son, I love them, I moved her father and sister into my mother's house, father was growing weed in the downstairs part without my knowledge(i knew he had some, we both had our expired medical cards, we ended up getting raided, I'm getting charged now, thank God they didn't take my son, I'm out on bail and have court in 2 days, my anxiety is really really bad, I can't go to my loved ones about it, my whole life I've never spoken with people, I always put on a fake smile and usually make everyone laugh, I've had sleeping problems since I can remember, usually just stay up and cry, theirs deeper things why I do this which I can't speak of, but I'm hurting so bad right now, I don't want to have a panick attack in court or right now, why am I a failure to my family? Why does my life suck even though I have a great family? I never had a father and all I want is to be normal for my son, I can't ever go to doctors, I've been looking at a therapists phone number I knew as a kid, I don't think he takes my insurance, I hate myself right now, 2 days and every minute my chest hurts more

[Skeezyks]

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[handheart]

Well i think your girlfriend its to abuzive its enogh that you adopt here son but also her father and her sister who grow weed ? this its to much .I think you shoulb be a less permistive and not so good person because people profit when thei see so nice people

[Bes22]

I am so sorry about the situation you are in! I know it is so difficult to control your anxiety, especially in stressful situations. I too get really bad chest pains when starting to get panicked. I wish there were tips I could give you! However, I myself am looking for tips on how to deal with all the panic, anxiety, and stress. Keep your head up and stay positive!

Originally Posted by Pahoa.guy

IDK how I'm even growing the pair to post this, I'm so scared, I don't even know where to begin... I'm a small white boy in Hawaii, grew up here, my mother left when I was 16 due to medical reasons, she owned a house here, I've been watching it my whole life, I have anxiety which hurts so bad right now, I have always had pretty bad anxiety preventing me from doing things with my life, I'm 25 now and no progress, I did start a beautiful family of my own, I have a gf with a wonderful 2 yr old son, I love them, I moved her father and sister into my mother's house, father was growing weed in the downstairs part without my knowledge(i knew he had some, we both had our expired medical cards, we ended up getting raided, I'm getting charged now, thank God they didn't take my son, I'm out on bail and have court in 2 days, my anxiety is really really bad, I can't go to my loved ones about it, my whole life I've never spoken with people, I always put on a fake smile and usually make everyone laugh, I've had sleeping problems since I can remember, usually just stay up and cry, theirs deeper things why I do this which I can't speak of, but I'm hurting so bad right now, I don't want to have a panick attack in court or right now, why am I a failure to my family? Why does my life suck even though I have a great family? I never had a father and all I want is to be normal for my son, I can't ever go to doctors, I've been looking at a therapists phone number I knew as a kid, I don't think he takes my insurance, I hate myself right now, 2 days and every minute my chest hurts more