[SpasticBliss]

Something just happened and I suddenly questioned everything (as I do about 5 times a day). I am on a much needed 5 day break from work, finally buying furniture for my apartment I moved into in April, just trying to relax.

So, my first day I thought a lot about work (decompressing/purging). I realized that the stress of not being aloud to make a mistake is causing me to freeze up. Then I get accused of "doing nothing." So, damned if I do, damned if I don't.

But now I realize I've always had this. Today, I'm waiting for a couch to be delivered this afternoon. So I got up at 6:00 a.m., had some coffee, read some articles online, then thought, I'd better run and pick up something from the pharmacy across the street. But then, I didn't want to.

I looked around at the few boxes I have left to deal with, I dragged some around, back into another room out of the living room, I texted some people and worried I probably said the wrong things to them... then I froze up. I shut down. I sat down in a chair, at least I meditated after just sitting there worrying for about 30 minutes.

Anyway, there is a psychological term for this. It is a "Freeze Response." I've started a blog and I think my first article will be on this topic. I write actual research stuff, hopefully in a familiar voice, but I have a research degree, I always cite my sources

How do people feel about this "Freeze Response?" It has triggered a whole stream of thought about other illnesses like ADD and how you get stressed and it becomes hard to focus and I've heard often they freeze up. This might explain why a bit of a stimulant helps?

Any thoughts? If I wrote this article and researched further, would anyone want to read it? Tell me your stories!!! I got some bad "freeze response" going on.