[pinkvilla]

I have a lot of shame associated with one or two incidents in my life. I have GAD and a bit of ocd. Recently I feel like scratch or hurt my skin with a pencil so that I can punish myself for that incidents. Also it will let some shame out.
The things that happened are very simple and happened 20 yrs ago. Now I am in a stressful situation and the shame about it is non stop. Anybody in my situation would have forgotten it years ago. But because of my perfectionism I can't let go and there is nothing that I can do to remedy that situation.

In my mind I know that I deserve compassion and I have been a good person my whole life (because of my unbelievable standards)and 1 or 2 mistakes are human. The shame voice is non stop and wanting to scratch myself is a new development. I'll never do any self harm seriously but I find myself pinching myself or use my nails a little deep on my arms too the point of slight pain.
How do I let go of this behavior?

[handheart]

Well this its a truma from your past and its afecting yku from subcontient mi d .Go to a psicholog and it will help you for sure .Try to forgive yourself also a d repeat everyday that you love yojr person

[Unrigged64072835]

I have a lot of bad memories that make me wince. I have to remind myself that it is over and done with, and has nothing to do with where I'm at today. If your perfectionistic tendencies are overwhelming maybe you need to see a therapist for some behavioral modification techniques.