[yummymomm]

Happy New year to everyone!
To introduce myself, i will say that i have debilitating health anxiety, and specifically when it comes to the breast.
Im 27 year old which medical testing more than i can ever remember (breast biopsy at age of 22! and many more....)
recently i went for breat ultrasound just for reassurance purposes cuz i didnt feel a thing! my dr told me everything was normal, but when i saw the report, i saw they saw a cyst, and a 08 cm intrammary lymph node. i didnt even feel a thing. then i was prodding at the area, which was much further down in the breast, under arm, for some reason i prob never felt that area when doing breast exam. anyway, i felt a large marble like ball that was very moveable. i couldnt believe this was the node they were talking about cuz it felt bigger than 08 cm! so i went back to ob/gyn, and bec she knows my and my high anxiety, she sent my for another ultrasound, 2 weeks after i went for the 1st! sonographer told me she see's same thing!
but i was panicking cuz the lump felt soo big and SCARYYYY. but the dr said its a typical lymph node nothng to worry about at all.
i was not relieved so i had someone show the report only (which btw was assessed as birads 2) to a breast surgeon and he told me nothing to worry about at all. birads 2 is a great catergory. then i have a family member that is very good with the director of radiology of breast center in my neighborhood. i had her look at ehe actual images itself and she called to tell me everything looks really fine. only lymph node which is totally normal.
the last sentence she threw in, "just monitor it" when i asked her if it can become problematic, she said, typically not.
but im sure you know monitoring for someone with HA, is adding fuel to an already burning flame!
basically, now i have this question.
does this lymph node in the breast put me at higher risk for developing BC? is this node any different than any typical node on the body that can anytime change?
i would also love to know, why this would appear out of no where, its not like its even enlarged or anything. no infection or illness...
please share if you have any info on this!
Thank you!

[*Laurie*]

I have terrible health anxiety, too, about myself and especially about my loved ones. 'Monitoring' is like a prison sentence in hell. I totally understand.

The thing is, I am not a medical professional, so I can't tell you much of anything about your medical situation. What I can suggest is that you find some way to cope with your terror of sickness, suffering, abandonment, and death. I am trying to do the same. I wish I had a great solution for you; if I did, I would be using it. Have you spoken with a therapist about your HA?

[handheart]

Yea i would sugest you to try to find a good therapist

[MissCathryn]

Oh my god! Going through Mammogram hell right now too! My meds are really helping my anxiety this time so it isn't as bad, but I can sympathize.

I've researched this all to the point that I prob could be a doctor..And I'm serious.

Birads 2 is perfectly fine. Also, you said the "marble" was very mobile. The rule is that if it is very mobile, it's just a lymph node. If it doesn't move, it isn't definite, but it needs to be checked.

I was the same way. I never believed any doctors. Meds have helped my health anxiety, but I was where you are for almost 15 years

[ken9018]

i cant say weather or not it puts you at risk for BC, but worrying does not help, i certainly know what your going through, i worry and google health symptoms sometimes to the point where they threw me into terrible anxiety attacks, its hard but my doc says u have to put things in perspective, is something really going to be that bad or is just a small little thing that can be dealt relatively easily