Anxiety of making mistakes.

Hi,
I'm not sure if any of you have experience this but need to wrap my head around this situation and rant.My uni screwed me up big style, as they failed me for the year then passed me ,but by the time I knew I was already repeating the year all over again,but in a different course. I was initially very motivated,but after realising I had actually passed last year (at the time) the university then had the cheek to try and remove the course that I had passed ,because I was doing another course ,which I wasn't even sure that I was going to pass anyway. In the end they didn't remove my qualification (still wary of them) ,and I ended up dropping out of uni that year ,as neither my teacher or the university were helping me ,and unfortunately I was charged a grant overpayment (which has now been paid off thanks to my mum ,as she paid most of it) ,and naturally my mum was pretty pissed off about it . But before this I wasn't exactly sure how I was going to pay it off ,as my mum said she wouldn't and I needed to pay it off asap ,and she asked me if I had asked my bf's mum to pay it ,and I said no but then I began to panic ,and the what ifs began. Though I think it wouldn't be nice to ask her to pay it off ,I was also out of options and this is what stressed me out ,and I was not sure who I'd turn to. I am glad I didn't ask her ,but would it have been the end of the world if I did ?,and would it have made me a bad person ?,and why do I feel guilty? I wouldn't have been in that situation had I not given my bf his first months rent ( which I wouldn't go back and change) ,and apparently I shouldn't borrow money off my bf according to my mum. Grrr that really bugs me as we borrow money off each other and I pay him back.I also feel annoyed that I feel guilty for something that I didn't do,and did not have much control over.I feel like she would have been posses
Off had I asked my bf's mum for help. 🙄🙄 I am not living with my mum and I do love her, but we just clash. Is there something wrong with me?Part of me says not to tell her everything, as this could lead to more arguments.

It's a good thing you don't live with your mother since you clash. You didn't do anything wrong. She doesn't have to know everything either.

Would I have made a mistake for asking for money? Thing is at the time I felt I was practically out of options. When his mum gave me money I always pay it back so I don't think she minds lending it to me if she has it.

Money can be a trigger for families and friends. I've only borrowed from my family once, and I promptly paid it back. My mother wanted to give me money but my father abused both of us when she did.

Is your mother one who holds things against you? That might make things difficult until you pay her off.

No , but i think that she doesn't like to ask for money but she does sometimes so i am not sure what the difference is here. I don't like to ask for money either but I felt like I had no choice as i FELT LIKE I WAS Fudged. I don't know...