[Xxarauz]

So I went to Los Angeles this summer to visit my sister. We had an amazing time. She introduced me to weed and we got high togther many times. One day we went and bought a 300 mg edible and I ate the whole edible. Me and my sister knew that these were the good times and that we would remember these good moments. I was already a nostalgic person and I would cry sometimes and hug my sister. So the night I ate th he edible, I was already high but I wanted to get higher. We went to chick fil a too and we ate. I laid down in bed and I out of nowhere started to cry, then after that I threw up and I became extremly confused not being able to understand anything. I started saying, "I'm sorry god" and my sister was telling me that I'm in la and I just took an edible. I then just laid down and fell asleep. Next morning I felt weird like nothing was real. No anxiety just a weird feeling. We went to Disneyland that day and I just felt like nothing was real. It went away tho. I came back to North Carolina after my one month vacay at LA. I cried because I love my sister and it was a great vacation. My sister sent me a weed vape pen because I just thought it would be nice to smoke some weed. I Smoked it a few times until one day I panicked for no reason but it wasn't as intense as the one in LA. So I brushed that off and decided to not smoke weed anymore. I felt derealized again too but it went away. I then said to myself, "okay I'm just gonna take one puff of my weed pen". I got high but deep down I was anxious that I might get another panic attack. So all that went away and I just brushed it off. Me and my sister listened to the jay z 4:44 album during my La vacation. I decided to listen to it again. I listened to a song and I started to panic for no reason and I knew I was panicking for no reason. This happened probably 3 weeks or a month ago. Ever since then I've had anxiety. For no reason, I would have weird feelings in certain lighting, mostly fluorescent lighting. I started to worry that I might be going crazy aswell. Sometimes I look at myself and sometimes I'm just like wow that's me. And recently like 2 days ago I started to worry and think. I started to think about how I go to school everyday and how it's like a loop. I started to worry and I hate it because I've never thought like this before and I hate thinking like this! I would at times feel better during these past 3 weeks. But then it would come back. It's so annoying. The day I listened to the jay z album I also started to think a lot about faces and how they have 2 eyes and stupid **** like that. That went away though. I fear sometimes, when I fee better, if he anxiety will come back. I hate this guys I just want to feel better. I wish I never smoked that ****ing weed. I wish I never smoked that stupid useless weed! Please guys I isn't want to feel better. I've noticed that all this anxiety is stupid as **** and that my life is great. I have the bestest of friends who have been helping me out. I cry sometimes aswell. I cry because I love my family and friends and I don't want to lose them by going insane. I want hope guys please, please guys I don't know what to do. I want to go to a psychologist aswell. But I just want hope rn because I feel like I'll never be myself again. All this anxiety and all these thoughts are annoying, it worries me when I think that this anxiety will never go away I regret smoking weed I never needed that ********. Please guys I want hope I've never felt like this before!

[Xxarauz]

Will anybody help me? All I want is hope. I wish I never smoked weed and I don't want this anxiety and irrational way of thinking to stay. I want to be better please what do I do

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Try not to worry, X. Sounds like you should go and see your doctor. They will calm you down and talk you through what to do next.

[elevatedsoul]

try to relax... breathe...

be easy on yourself...

the weed will leave your system and you will be ok, i promise.. if it is the weed causing this... it wont stay in your system for ever...

try to use distractions...
funny videos, things that interest you... cute guys, or girls
documentaries about your hobbies, activities with friends that you love
take your mind off of it... its going to pass if its the weed...

is it the first time you smoked before?

are there stressors going on in your life right now...? things happening that are worrying you or bad things happening to you?

are you stressed or freaked out about having to leave your sister...?

its going to be ok, i promise... just try to relax... breathe deep and slow...

keep talking here, i will talk to you..

I think you are going to be OK. I have heard of that drug triggering psychosis, and I have had innocuous drugs do it to me.

Go see the doctor, that is good advice

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC. I think one of two things will happen: it will wear off with time or you will see a doctor who will assuage your fears. I hope you feel better soon. Sending big hugs.

[Xxarauz]

I don't want to go crazy though guys! That's my biggest fear. And no I haven't smoked in a month. I guess when I listened to the jay z album I remembered LA and remembered the panic attack I had there and I panicked. I knew very well I was panicking for no reason. So I immediately laid down and calmed myself. Ever since that, which was 3 weeks ago. My anxiety goes and comes. I get a little anxious in certain lighting. I don't know if I have a little bit of ptsd since it was the first panic attack I've had and I was high during it. I don't want to go crazy guys that's my biggest fear because if I lose my mind, I lose my friends and family and I love them so much.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

There's no reason any of that should happen, X.

But it's impossible for us to know what's going on with you medically. Definitely see a doctor, or drugs counsellor, as soon as you can.

[Shazerac]

I think it would help you to see a doctor to reassure you that you will be ok. Your anxiety seems to be centered around "loosing your mind." If you did in fact, loose your mind, as in psychosis, there is successful treatment for that. It does not mean you would loose your family and friends.

[Travelinglady]

Hi, X, and welcome to Psych Central I agree with the rest of the folks. See your doc and tell what happened. I don't think you'll go crazy, but weed doesn't sound like it's for you.

[Keyplayer]

Hi Xxarauz ,

I remember back in the day , we used to get some 1-hit-wonder and go sailing , but sometimes it would be a bad deal , and psychosis would hit , but if I just took it easy, it would wear off.

I have no idea what it is like today , I have had people tell me that todays stuff , is like the very best "gold" back in the the day.

It all clears , bad trips , it all clears in a few days.

Just drink plenty of water and fruit juice and U will be a ok.

I mean it wasn't`t Ty-Stick right ? I don`t even think you can get that anymore.

OK what is Ty-Stick ? weed soaked in opium , that will mess U up ing time , kind of the same as chasing the dragon , not a good idea.

Be safe , I herd about the gummies , I am not sure I would try then or not , even Amazon sells then !!

OK , take care be well

Keyplayer. 

[spondiferous]

I had a similar experience, when I used to smoke weed. It did some wild things to me. I can't smoke it at all. Sometimes I have a good experience but mostly I'm paranoid, anxious, and it lasts for a long time afterward. I'm super sensitive to all things, whether it's prescription drugs, weed, harder drugs, what have you. All I can say is, I'd maybe consider staying away from the weed. It might not be worth it if there's a chance it could aggravate what you are experiencing. It's also true, what you said, that it could've triggered something to do with your PTSD. Anything is possible. If it helps, though, I don't think you are going crazy. I'm still here, many years later, and I still live anxiety, and I have learned how to recognize it and that it doesn't mean I'm going crazy. And if you need help, ask for it. Don't be afraid to do whatever you need to do to keep yourself safe.

[Keyplayer]

Hi S ,

Thanks , yes even with weed sometimes you never know what ur smoke`n & toke`n !

I have not done any illegal drugs for a long ... time , and don`t plan to start either !!

Take care

KP. 

[Michael W. Harris]

Originally Posted by Xxarauz

Will anybody help me? All I want is hope. I wish I never smoked weed and I don't want this anxiety and irrational way of thinking to stay. I want to be better please what do I do

Everything in moderation. Everything!!!!

When anyone gets high whether on pot or alcohol, they should be clearly aware that it is going to change their mood!
Sometimes it is a happy mood change and sometimes it is a sad mood change. Sometimes you can get paranoid. Sometimes you can get angry. It you keep aware of the fact that all stimulants or depresants are going to have an effect on your moods, then you will not freak out about it. But again, everything in moderation.

[Xxarauz]

I've gone to the psychologist and she said I'm not going crazy. I'm gonna do emdr therapy soon too. I still worry about my mental health. All I want is to feel better. I regret smoking weed. I hope I can move on. That's all I want. I know something's wrong with me and I hope I can move on. Maybe I need to go back to visit my sister again but without using ****ing drugs. I just want to feel like I did before smoking weed. I know I keep saying that but it's truly all I want. What happened was that I just got too high and had a panic attack. I had a memory flashback of the day after my panic attack when we went to Disneyland when I listened to jay z

[Sunflower123]

I’m sorry this happened to you and hope it resolves itself. It’s good you’re getting help for it. Best wishes.