[_blubbermouth_]

It's normal for me to be anxious about all social stuff and over people I'm worried about, but it's getting incredibly insane.

My stomach is in knots almost every morning now as soon as I wake up. I've had feelings of nausea on my worst days, which is become more often now these last couple months. I can't even eat in public anymore without this feeling whilst I'm there or without almost having a panic attack as the time for the event draws closer. I can't even step outside the house without knots anymore. Today I even surpassed those levels and threw up without even stepping out the house. I also had that knot in my stomach for the majority of today since I awoke. I had my boyfriend over today though, and his company helped me a lot.
His hugs and even just his touch never fail to calm down my insides.

I don't even know why I'm so anxious most days anymore, which really pees me off, especially when I tell my boyfriend that I can't think of a particular reasons for the anxiety, and it frustrates him a little as he knows there has to be some sort of reason behind it, which then makes me feel worse. I've had a couple days lately where my hands have even just randomly shook for a little while, or I've gotten lightheaded and dizzy for a while. My heart is almost always beating harder and faster now too.

I pretty much can't do anything anymore without anxiety interfering. It's really annoying and frustrating me. I want to escape the anxiety, but there's seems to be literally no way I can right now. I can't even just simply wake up without anxiety tapping my shoulder and announcing in my ear, "Guess who's back!".

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I don't know what to do. I thought I could solve this and help myself, but it's just gradually getting worse every few days or so, it turns out I can't do this alone. I can't keep living like this. Especially with the nausea stuff, as that's becoming so frequent now, I can't let that lead to anything serious.

Possible trigger:

I'm still kinda recovering from when I used to starve myself for the majority of last year and the first 6 months or so of this year. I don't want to get into that again, either on purpose or because of this.

I want to be able to eat in public. I want to be able to even just roam the shops and buy food without knots in my stomach. I want to be free from my anxiety.

//Not particularly asking for tips or anything, although I may need them actually, so please feel free to do so. I just needed to get this off my chest somewhere.//

Originally Posted by _blubbermouth_

It's normal for me to be anxious about all social stuff and over people I'm worried about, but it's getting incredibly insane.

My stomach is in knots almost every morning now as soon as I wake up. I've had feelings of nausea on my worst days, which is become more often now these last couple months. I can't even eat in public anymore without this feeling whilst I'm there or without almost having a panic attack as the time for the event draws closer. I can't even step outside the house without knots anymore. Today I even surpassed those levels and threw up without even stepping out the house. I also had that knot in my stomach for the majority of today since I awoke. I had my boyfriend over today though, and his company helped me a lot.
His hugs and even just his touch never fail to calm down my insides.

I don't even know why I'm so anxious most days anymore, which really pees me off, especially when I tell my boyfriend that I can't think of a particular reasons for the anxiety, and it frustrates him a little as he knows there has to be some sort of reason behind it, which then makes me feel worse. I've had a couple days lately where my hands have even just randomly shook for a little while, or I've gotten lightheaded and dizzy for a while. My heart is almost always beating harder and faster now too.

I pretty much can't do anything anymore without anxiety interfering. It's really annoying and frustrating me. I want to escape the anxiety, but there's seems to be literally no way I can right now. I can't even just simply wake up without anxiety tapping my shoulder and announcing in my ear, "Guess who's back!".

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I don't know what to do. I thought I could solve this and help myself, but it's just gradually getting worse every few days or so, it turns out I can't do this alone. I can't keep living like this. Especially with the nausea stuff, as that's becoming so frequent now, I can't let that lead to anything serious.

Possible trigger:

I'm still kinda recovering from when I used to starve myself for the majority of last year and the first 6 months or so of this year. I don't want to get into that again, either on purpose or because of this.

I want to be able to eat in public. I want to be able to even just roam the shops and buy food without knots in my stomach. I want to be free from my anxiety.

//Not particularly asking for tips or anything, although I may need them actually, so please feel free to do so. I just needed to get this off my chest somewhere.//

Possible trigger:

I starved myself a few years ago, and after nearly dying (because of my body shutting down), it took me around 6 months to return to a normal (or somewhat normal), eating rooteen.

I now don't have lunch because of it, and I am also an overeater- also because of what happened

I wish you luck (not only with that), but also controling your anxiety.

is their anything (anything at all) you can do that is a distraction?

[_blubbermouth_]

Usually my music on my phone and some calm games I have on my iPad help distract me and help my insides calm down, but the anxiety has started to just return afterwards--