[rodza_sky]

So long story short, for over a year now since my mother was diagnosed and passed away from cancer I've been having a lot of health anixiety. You know regular hypochondriac stuff. I think of a disease, find a symptom and it starts..
I first began thinking of schizophrenia when I thought that my hypochondriac fears may be delusions. Then I got explained what the delusions are and how am I not delusional and I calmed down a bit. Then I learned that my father has been diagnosed with f20 schiz 10 years ago an since freaked again
Ever since I have been constantly thinking of it and looking for the symptoms
I am seeing a therapist for my anixiety who doesn't believe I have schizophrenia. I have also went to UCSF clinic to see if I can join the early psychosis program at their place. Basically if they believe that I am at high risk, they would watch over me and do research
From what they believe I not in high risk group and they said I did not qualify for this program
But I just always find something new to worry about, it may be something I forgot to say, I may think that they didn't understand me or something new had arise.
And it is a never ending circle of that
How do I address this issue? I still do have an inheritance risk and I have been experiencing unusual thought and I have been more anxious and paranoid.which I did mention to ucsf and I while they said I should be good I am still quite afraid
I don't really have that many close people who would be able to watch me often enough to notice something changing and to be also able submit me into a hospital when something happens to me. The best thing that could happen is that I my current therapist or a friend will make a suggestion for me to visit a doctor but that's as far as it goes, because if I were schiz I wouldn't be able to trust my friends or have criticism of my own condition
Thanks

[Skeezyks]

Well... I'm not sure what to tell you about this. From what you wrote, it doesn't sound as though your situation is really different from anyone else's. We all live with the possibility that, at any point in our lives, we could unexpectedly develop some sort of physical or psychological illness. I was unexpectedly diagnosed with cancer quite a few years ago now. It came right out of the blue, so to speak. (Obviously I'm still here.)

I'm an older person now. And I've had quite a few of the conditions, in my life, that are typically listed as being potential precursors for dementia. So I'm always looking for signs I might be developing it. (So far, I don't think I am.) The difference, in your case is that you're worrying about your physical as well as your mental health.

You mentioned you see a therapist. So, from my perspective, I think talking with your T may be the best way to handle this. Perhaps some CBT, or something like that, might be helpful as well, if you haven't already done it. Here are links to some articles, on the subjects of health anxiety & rumination, from PsychCentral's archives that may be of some help too:

https://psychcentral.com/lib/ocd-and-health-anxiety/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/why-ru...d-how-to-stop/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/8-tips...op-ruminating/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/5-mind...or-rumination/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...ps-to-stop-it/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/the-re...uce-the-cycle/

My best wishes to you...