[WpgMom]

My summer vacation was a disaster. As it approached I started to panic. I really wanted to cancel it but I was scared to do that too. My boss doesn't yell but she grits her teeth (yes like an animal). It is a horrible combination with my anxiety. I was so scared if I showed up at work when I was supposed to be on vacation she would get mad at me but I was also scared to not be here. I just can't stop worrying about work when I am not there. If I am here I can deal with whatever happens, if I am anywhere else I constantly worry that something terrible is happening all the time. So in the summer, I went to the lake alone and couldn't go outside. I hid in the bedroom with the blinds down. I slept with my laptop so it would wake me if I got an email. Even the sight of the sunlight outside made me cry. I am a mess.
I was feeling a bit better a few weeks ago and booked a flight to go to visit my recently retired husband in Arizona. I am also supposed to go back down there with my son at Christmas. I promised myself in the summer I would never plan a vacation again and look what I went and did. Now the November flight is coming up and the panic is starting to set in. My boss knows about it so if I back out I have to deal with her again too. I feel like the most likely scenario is that I will go, feel horrible, and sit inside in Arizona sleeping with my laptop again.

[Travelinglady]

Does you boss not want you to go on vacation? Is that it?

[WishfulThinker66]

I am scared to ask for time off; even for important things like doctor's appointments and such. I worry that I will be considered a nuisance and risk management getting angry with me.

Originally Posted by WishfulThinker66

I am scared to ask for time off; even for important things like doctor's appointments and such. I worry that I will be considered a nuisance and risk management getting angry with me.

I have the same problem. Everytime I go out someone "discovers" something I didn't do. Not that these things aren't done mind you, but because I can't immediately defend myself it becomes a thing.

That being said, last year a co worker was getting thin, we all noticed it. She couldn't take time off though because of a legit important thing. When it was over she finally did... uterine cancer... she was dead within 2 weeks of the diagnosis. Take the time off for your health.

[WpgMom]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

Does you boss not want you to go on vacation? Is that it?

My boss is funny that way. She says "we work 7.5 hours a day with a lunch" but means "be at your desk when I get in, any time I walk by and when I leave" which translates to 6am ish to anywhere between 5-7pm. She says "you take your vacation" but am I scared of her reaction if anything goes wrong.

[Travelinglady]

Boy, she's a pain!