Really falling down a Health Anxiety Hole

I have had HA my entire life. I think the only time it let up (ironically) was during the pandemic. I think this is because 1. You weren't supposed to be going to the doctor then anyway and 2. I was working from home.. so, if some emergency came up... I could easily handle it (my workplace didn't need me in).

But since going back it has come back with a Vengeance. Even though I don't have to come in all the time, since I am tasked with going in on short notice.. it feels like i am in the same trap as when I was in every day... and because so many people are not in, it is difficult to get coverage.

So sometime around August it seemed like I was having difficulty swallowing. At first I brushed it off because that is odd. But later I posted some where and everyone told me to get to the doctor ASAP. But guess what... it is excessively hard to get to a doctor and I ended up with a PA (no doctor was available) about 30 days later. (wouldn't you think this was an urgent symptom?).

The PA imho was horrible she didn't listen and wanted me to go for a Endoscopy at the end of December. But to me it felt like she was going to order that no matter what. I was ok to do it but I called the hospital to ask about directions and the lady there was super rude. This left me thinking maybe this wasn't the right place to have it done. So I made an appointment with a gastro I trust for February. I hate that I can't get in any sooner but I am on a waiting list.

In my heart I think this is nothing... but that HA part of my head keeps torturing me.

I feel like maybe I should call the place back and get set up again. Just get it over with.

I also thought of doing this... there is a liquid biopsy blood test called Galleri that will test for cancer. It is pretty accurate for late stage - stage 3. And I figured I could get that and if it came back negative do things at my own pace. It is 1K out of my own pocket.

I am in therapy for this but my therapist isn't helping. I mean... she suggest CBT but I am way ahead of her. The basic problem with HA is that it is rooted in reality. It isn't crazy to be worrying in this situation. In fact sometimes I wonder if I just have a more sensitive body than most.