[Yoda]

It has been eight years since I killed my dangerous BF. Since then I have socially isolated. I am thinking about going back to work as a RN but I am scared a nurse or somebody may ask something I don't how to answer.

I made a phone call to a nurse I haven't seen in nine years and the conversation was a bit awkward on my part. I need to refresh my knowledge of changes since I lost work. I have the books I need now but I feel intimidated reading them.

I like teaching but I am afraid if I commit to teach a day I will not sleep all night because of anxiety. That happened to me when I was going to my hair stylist; I have known him for 25 years and I like to look good. I don't know if that makes any sense but I know my stylists and his staff will say how are you doing now and I never know how to graciously answer that.

I saw an old friend a couple of weeks ago when I was at the lab and I got anxious talking to her about what I am doing thses day. She gave me her number and said call her but I feel nervous about that.

Rationally I know that I need more socialization but it scares me.

Suggestions?

[crazydoglady]

<font color="green"> </font> I had a similar problem about becomeing afraid of my co workers It caused me to loose my job. It's not the first time either.

As for trying to socialize myself, I too would have nightmares about it. My p doc put me on seroquel and it has really helped! I am less nervous during the day after socializing and its nice to know that once the serquel kicks in, It's sweet dreams!

One warning about seroquel, YOU WILL SLEEP! It will really knock you out.You do get acclimated to it though.

I hope you find some peace.