I've done very well today--depression is held at bay and irritation/anxiety has been ok. Well, was a little bad this morning--of course I kept checking and checking to see if S had written. Nothing. Got home from karate demo for daughter (she did so well!) and I have to remote in to my desktop at work and do some reports and that means I have to be on the computer so of course I check to see if he wrote. I saw the little (1) for 1 message and my heart soared

. Should have stopped there. "flooding n wind..am ok though. xo". That was it. (He's in NC by the coast). My heart fell even further than it soared.

And I don't know why. At least he wrote telling me he's ok, right? But now I'm all aggitated, every little thing is bothering me, including the ceiling fan, my kids talking, my skin, cars going by. Only one tear has fallen but I can hardly see they are clouding my eyes so bad. My hands are shaking and I want to scream.

I'm too old to feel like this!!!
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"We can't talk at the same time! It doesn't work like that! I talk, you talk, I talk, you talk!!" ~ Peanut