[KanyaxRose]

I honestly don't know what forum this should be in. I haven't been on PC in months. Forgive me if I've messed up.

I'm kind of surprised that I'm typing so calmly.

Shall we try for some more candid expression of what's going on in me right now?

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Helpmehelpmepleasedon'thurtmeI'mscaredpleasepleaseplease-insert scream here-

That lovely, repititious inner monologue, with an almost overpowering urge to start throwing myself at walls, breaking mirrors, hitting the floor, etc, is a pretty astute description of the past half hour.

I have no idea what's going on, though this has happened before.

Anybody have any answers?

[cherylann]

so u want someone 2tell u whats wrong w/u? Can I ask u the same? there just isnt enough to go by from the little u wrote..do u suffer from a Mental Illness? R U taking any Meds.? If I had some Background about u, I could b much more helpful... "I" myself am Bipolar & I have these fits of rage just like u, on occassion, my brain just goes wacko on me.... Obvoiusly u feel like your out of control? is that how u r feeling? Whatever it is your going thru , u r acting Out..I only know this because i experience the same.... Maybe u wont reply 2this because u r Impulsive? and sometimes U just need 2Get IT OUT! Then your calm again.... can u tell me whats going on in your life right now? then we can take it from there..... But Remember U r not alone Sweetie...
cherylann

Originally Posted by KanyaxRose

I honestly don't know what forum this should be in. I haven't been on PC in months. Forgive me if I've messed up.

I'm kind of surprised that I'm typing so calmly.

Shall we try for some more candid expression of what's going on in me right now?

...

Helpmehelpmepleasedon'thurtmeI'mscaredpleasepleaseplease-insert scream here-

That lovely, repititious inner monologue, with an almost overpowering urge to start throwing myself at walls, breaking mirrors, hitting the floor, etc, is a pretty astute description of the past half hour.

I have no idea what's going on, though this has happened before.

Anybody have any answers?

[KanyaxRose]

Originally Posted by cherylann

so u want someone 2tell u whats wrong w/u? Can I ask u the same? there just isnt enough to go by from the little u wrote..do u suffer from a Mental Illness? R U taking any Meds.? If I had some Background about u, I could b much more helpful... "I" myself am Bipolar & I have these fits of rage just like u, on occassion, my brain just goes wacko on me.... Obvoiusly u feel like your out of control? is that how u r feeling? Whatever it is your going thru , u r acting Out..I only know this because i experience the same.... Maybe u wont reply 2this because u r Impulsive? and sometimes U just need 2Get IT OUT! Then your calm again.... can u tell me whats going on in your life right now? then we can take it from there..... But Remember U r not alone Sweetie...
cherylann

I've got dysthymia and I'm taking SAM-E for it; I used to be on Lexapro but the side effects were too severe for me to stay on it. For awhile I was on Depakote because it was thought that I was borderline, but apparently not.
I saw my mother earlier, for the first time in a few months. She and my father were both very abusve when I lived with them, so that could be what triggered it, but I'm not sure because it wasn't immediate, it's been three or four hours since I saw her.
I'm holding onto my control by a thread- I haven't actually DONE anything except tremble a lot [I'm retyping just about every other word because I keep missing the keys, my hands are shaking so badly] and whimper a bit.

[thunderbear]

Originally Posted by KanyaxRose

I honestly don't know what forum this should be in. I haven't been on PC in months. Forgive me if I've messed up.

I'm kind of surprised that I'm typing so calmly.

Shall we try for some more candid expression of what's going on in me right now?

...

Helpmehelpmepleasedon'thurtmeI'mscaredpleasepleaseplease-insert scream here-

That lovely, repititious inner monologue, with an almost overpowering urge to start throwing myself at walls, breaking mirrors, hitting the floor, etc, is a pretty astute description of the past half hour.

I have no idea what's going on, though this has happened before.

Anybody have any answers?

I'm no expert but I have those same thoughts when I have a really bad panic attack. I once put my hand through a double pane window. I don't know but I belive I did it out of fear.

[BMcCue7]

I feel like that most of the time myself.