[Reina-Rena]

For the past month or longer I have had this feeling that an unknown "God" type figure is always with me, wherever I go. Its always watching me, it always knows what Im doing and thinking. It judges me harshly...Calls me names and looks down upon me with harsh comments. It talks to me in my mind and tries to make me believe false statements. I know all this sounds very strange...but if someone eles out there knows what Im talking about, please reply. This is a serious issue that I have been dealing with for far too long. I have been diagnosed with OCD, but mental illnesses run in my family...I believe I may have more than just OCD.

[Sannah]

Did you discuss this with your therapist or psychiatrist?

[gimmeice]

((((((((((((((( reina-rena ))))))))))))))))))))
Could it be that this figure is your own thoughts judging yourself? I am very judgemental of myself and what you are experiencing sounds similar to what I experience. I also think that you should talk to a therapist or counselor about what you are experiencing.

[Reina-Rena]

I was just recently released from the hospital. The doctors there made sure I would have both a theropist and a psychiatrist to talk with. I have only had one session with my theropist so far. I have another appointment with her tomorrow. They may be my own thoughts...Im not sure. Although, it doesnt feel or sound as though their mine...it sounds like someone elses voice when the thoughts come to my mind. I dont believe their my thoughts due to the way the voice speaks. Usually, when they are my thoughts I will address myself as "I" but, when this voice speaks it says my name.

[Sannah]

Keep us posted..............

[skeeweeaka]

Originally Posted by Reina-Rena

I was just recently released from the hospital. The doctors there made sure I would have both a theropist and a psychiatrist to talk with. I have only had one session with my theropist so far. I have another appointment with her tomorrow. They may be my own thoughts...Im not sure. Although, it doesnt feel or sound as though their mine...it sounds like someone elses voice when the thoughts come to my mind. I dont believe their my thoughts due to the way the voice speaks. Usually, when they are my thoughts I will address myself as "I" but, when this voice speaks it says my name.

I actually had the voices like this, they would always call me by name! It was frightening and it took a long time for me to discuss this with my T, but it was comforting to let someone else know. Sometimes I would talk to the voices and my dd would come up and ask me who I was talking to...

Hope you get to the bottom of it soon!

TJ

[thunderbear]

Originally Posted by Reina-Rena

For the past month or longer I have had this feeling that an unknown "God" type figure is always with me, wherever I go. Its always watching me, it always knows what Im doing and thinking. It judges me harshly...Calls me names and looks down upon me with harsh comments. It talks to me in my mind and tries to make me believe false statements. I know all this sounds very strange...but if someone eles out there knows what Im talking about, please reply. This is a serious issue that I have been dealing with for far too long. I have been diagnosed with OCD, but mental illnesses run in my family...I believe I may have more than just OCD.

I hae the same problem but mine stems from my family and their "you'll go to hell for wearing jeans and makeup" attitude. Was you family like that? If so that may be why you have those feelings

[Reina-Rena]

Originally Posted by thunderbear

I hae the same problem but mine stems from my family and their "you'll go to hell for wearing jeans and makeup" attitude. Was you family like that? If so that may be why you have those feelings

No, my family isn't like that. Although, thank you for the advice thunderbear, and everyone else! I hope that everyone else with this problem has it solved soon. My appointment with the theropist was moved to a later date. I told her about this 'God' figure in our first meeting, but I think I will bring it up to her again since it's becoming an issue for me. Thank you for the wonderful help everyone!

[FooZe]

(Coming in a little late here, sorry.)

Originally Posted by Reina-Rena

Its always watching me, it always knows what Im doing and thinking. It judges me harshly...Calls me names and looks down upon me with harsh comments.

If there was once a part of you that you decided you didn't like and didn't want to hear from any more (maybe because there was some other part of you that you were trying to be at that time)...

...and in order to make that first part (of you) go away and stop bothering you, you perhaps called it names and made harsh comments about it to yourself...

...until it did seem to give up and fade into the shadows for a while, and let the rest of you apparently get on without it...

... then, if that part of you ever did start waking up and reminding you, "Hey, I'm still here, I didn't go anywhere, I'm still part of you," it might very well show up as a voice in your head, calling you names and making harsh comments right back to you.

Part of your job now might be to start making friends with a part of you that you'd disowned for a while. It's you, after all, and it doesn't always have to sound like your worst enemy -- it could eventually become your best friend. If you and it (you and you, really) have had a strained relationship for a long time, it might take a while to get back on good terms. I'm not you, and I don't live in your head or even in your house, but I suspect it could very well turn out to be worth it.

If I were dealing with a voice like that, I'm pretty sure I'd start by saying hello to it and letting it say hello back. I might ask it what it wanted to tell me, and listen as nicely as I was able to. At some point I might want to look and see if I wanted to apologize to it for anything mean I might have said about it -- and maybe also invite it to apologize for anything mean it had said about me. Then, when I was good and ready, I'd either say goodbye to it (and have it say goodbye to me) -- or invite it (me) to join me in my travels and get the benefit of its (my) point of view.

There's a cute little story here about how someone in another culture dealt with something a little bit like your "God"-like voice. It's part of a collection; here's the index, in case anyone's interested.

Well, I've had very similar feelings ever since I was a child.
Except I thought that god actually thought I was bad and was actually going to come down and punish me like Adam and Eve. ...my family was never that religious, except for my grandparents who were Catholics. Today that fear occasionally pops up...especially when I hear phantom sounds.

As for the person in your head, yeah, I have one of those two. People name them the "inner critic" but I believe "inner demon" is much more accurate for me at least. Mostly because (she) was created specifically to cause me suffering.

I've always thought there was nothing I could do about it. It's just me, the way I am. That no doctor, no matter what they specialize in could make voices in your head go away. But apparently this is not so, huh?

[Reina-Rena]

Originally Posted by Fool Zero

Part of your job now might be to start making friends with a part of you that you'd disowned for a while. It's you, after all, and it doesn't always have to sound like your worst enemy -- it could eventually become your best friend. If you and it (you and you, really) have had a strained relationship for a long time, it might take a while to get back on good terms. I'm not you, and I don't live in your head or even in your house, but I suspect it could very well turn out to be worth it.

If I were dealing with a voice like that, I'm pretty sure I'd start by saying hello to it and letting it say hello back. I might ask it what it wanted to tell me, and listen as nicely as I was able to. At some point I might want to look and see if I wanted to apologize to it for anything mean I might have said about it -- and maybe also invite it to apologize for anything mean it had said about me. Then, when I was good and ready, I'd either say goodbye to it (and have it say goodbye to me) -- or invite it (me) to join me in my travels and get the benefit of its (my) point of view.

There's a cute little story here about how someone in another culture dealt with something a little bit like your "God"-like voice. It's part of a collection; here's the index, in case anyone's interested.

Thank you so much Fool Zero! I think I will take your advice and try to befriend this voice...I would like to solve why this voice is present in the first place. It is a part of me after all and I shouldn't ignore its exsistance, right?

Thank you Fool Zero and everyone else so very much!

[Reina-Rena]

Originally Posted by Kaika

Well, I've had very similar feelings ever since I was a child.
Except I thought that god actually thought I was bad and was actually going to come down and punish me like Adam and Eve. ...my family was never that religious, except for my grandparents who were Catholics. Today that fear occasionally pops up...especially when I hear phantom sounds.

As for the person in your head, yeah, I have one of those two. People name them the "inner critic" but I believe "inner demon" is much more accurate for me at least. Mostly because (she) was created specifically to cause me suffering.

I've always thought there was nothing I could do about it. It's just me, the way I am. That no doctor, no matter what they specialize in could make voices in your head go away. But apparently this is not so, huh?

Thank you for sharing your story Kaika! Its good to know that we are not alone in this.

[iluzhyn]

Hmm, don't know. When God talks to me He is always very helpful. But the 'other' he is evil and judges me constantly. Hard to shut him up; have arguments with him in my mind....at least I try to, sometimes its out loud but that tends to attract the attention of bystanders.