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Hello everyone my name is jaleesa , Im 22 and a mother of a 1 year old boy , Self admitted myself in the pysch unit in 2013 and was diagnosed with major depression with pyschtoic features and anxiety disorder I guess I was searching for answers to what and why was this going on with me and before going into the pysch unit I believed I was schizopenic , I also smoked weed for the first time in my life to ease my mind Which was a huge mistake , Im thinking maybe I have COD or maybe this is the beginning of something serious and my main worry is not being able to be a mother to my son , I haven't been on medication since oct when I couldn't operate and felt so numb being on medication , I still have my days of intrusive thoughts or voices I really cant tell and anxious with occasionally panic attacks , with god on my side im managing and a huge support system , I still have my bad days of thoughts and/or voices which was the true reason I went into the pysch unit because I felt like a threat to my son and I had so many bad thoughts or voices towards him That's my life and I want him to always be able to look forward to mommy , Im walking with faith and with my savior Christ nothing is possible without him !!

Hello, zahmom0725, and again, welcome! I know it won't be easy, but try to take things one day at a time. And not think about getting worse, but better!

I suggest you see a therapist to help you with your anxiety, especially if you don't take meds.