[emolikeburning]

Hello all, thanks for reading.

I'm 24 years old and have never been officially diagnosed with ADD. I've tried to bring it up with doctors but I've only encountered ones who were nonsupportive of it or didn't want to talk about it or whatever. I've talked to counselors and peers with it and social workers etc who have all said that I need to be screened for it (when I was younger) but I never got officially tested.
It is painfully obvious that I have it. i can haardly make friends because they all think I'm insincere or not listening when really it feels like an internal and external struggle to pay attention to anything. You guyus know what I mean, that feeling thatthere is an immovable wall on your chest and it's such a nagging horriblee feeling when you try to do some long arduous project or meeting or class time, anything like that. I can't sit still, I'm ridiculously disorganized (but it works for me!), I can't get anywhere on time and I was even divorrced by the time I was 19. (Impulse wedding and quick divorce, ha)
now I am in a much better place and have been reading books about how too cope with it because I haven't had insurance for so long that I've been doing online support and reading. But now I have insurance. The only problem is that it's government provided because I have a young child.
Normally having insurance would be a good thing, but because it is governement provided, I am terrified of going to a doctor to talk about having ADHD because I have never been professionalyl diagnosed (but I remember now I did touch upon it at the end of my sessions with a psychiatrist I was seeing inr egards to anxiety and depression directly associated with it). But there are so many people on government insurance who get these drugs and abuse them that I am absolutely terrified to ask about them. Especially since I know so much about the disease from having to find therapeutic ways to take care of it myself.
I know I would benefit IMMENSELY from drug therapy along with the things I am doing to get my life in order. i am currently enrolled in nursing school too so I need all the help I can get!
Does anyone have any suggestions or anything about how to approach this with a doctor or have a similar story? Anyone ever feel terrified asking about the drugs? I just feel like any doctor I go to will judge me and write something terrible on my medical records or something. Any advice is welcomed! I also look forward to joining this communityt and sharing experiences etc.
Sorry so long, I tend to babble, I'm sure eveyrone can relate, haha!
and please forgive the spelling, I'm on a laptop in the car!

[SophiaG]

Dont be afraid. In fact, i'm proud of you for asking for help

Many people dont.

Make an appointment to be tested for it. then, make an appointment with a psychiatrist that will be able to prescribe you medication. THEN, go to a counselor that can help you change you behaviorally.

It's a complicated process, but well worth it. :3