What is this????

I don't know if I have add/adhd..my brother has add but that was a really long time ago and he stopped his meds I forget why..anyways I get told alot of times that I'm crazy and can't control what I do/say..that is true in some ways..I don't like to think about what I do before doing it..I tend to blurt out alot of things I shouldn't..I dunno if this is something else or am I just a weirdo who has tricked herself?
Ok believe it or not..I always want to be the center of attention..and when I'm not I'm anxious inside..I wish it would stop it feels really bad..I talk nonstop to 'some' people and I don't know why words keep coming out when I have nothing to say in reality! I can go on for days about nothing or some made up story..I don't know why! I think I'm a quite person but I'm not ??? I ask what people think about me and they say I'm very loud..what the heck..I didn't know that I try to control talking sometimes it works its ok but if I don't talk I am dying inside..that's why I should stop coming on these chats!
!!! Also part of my memory..I know I made thread about this I think if it's still there is really bad..I can't remember my multiplication tables,the alpahbet, or easy words like 'the' & 'and'. It really is so aaaah I don't know..I'm not trying to make fun of anybody like I said before I don't know what this is or if its a self problem...I think stuff I think that happened but never did and I do that cause I can't remember!!! UUuuuuugh this is getting out of control..by this I mean me..I want to desperately remember things and shut up once in awhile so I won't be called annoying..I feel really weird and times and I can't put my finger on why! Whyyy am I this I dunno whats wrong..I have words wanting to blurt out right now but nobodys even in the room..i love annoying people by annoying I mean talking too much and I i dunno it just idk..but I really dont like doing that..I also am very fidgety??and obsessive with brushing my teeth..i know that is random but yeahbye