[MrWoods]

So where to start.
The wifes in class so I've got time to type.

I am a marine and i just got told i have ADHD last week.
They started me on adderall 15mg twice a day. now im on 10mg three times a day. the 10mg doesnt seem to help me much but ill deal with that on Friday when i go back to the doc.

I guess its just hit me all at once. everything i know is a lie. i built who i am around one simple logic, that i am totally insain. before i joined i was fearless. finding my self praying for someone to pull a gun at the store i was a so i could get the chance to take them out. now i fear everything. higher ranking try to help by criticizing my faults and it just makes me fell week and cold. i joined to be a bad *** and now i realize that the only reason i earned the title of MARINE was because i can take more physical punishment and pain than any normal person.

im crying typing this because i fell empty some what because all my faults have been a disease eating away at me, and i could have been doing so much more. my parents were told i had ADHD when i was 3 but when they went to sign me up for disability my parents were told i didnt have it any more. its so frustrating that i just want to scream. my bad hand writing, switching letters around in words when i write, and forgetting things. all of these have been the biggest things giving me trouble all these years and it could have been avoided.

[Ithurts]

Originally Posted by MrWoods

So where to start.
The wifes in class so I've got time to type.

I am a marine and i just got told i have ADHD last week.
They started me on adderall 15mg twice a day. now im on 10mg three times a day. the 10mg doesnt seem to help me much but ill deal with that on Friday when i go back to the doc.

I guess its just hit me all at once. everything i know is a lie. i built who i am around one simple logic, that i am totally insain. before i joined i was fearless. finding my self praying for someone to pull a gun at the store i was a so i could get the chance to take them out. now i fear everything. higher ranking try to help by criticizing my faults and it just makes me fell week and cold. i joined to be a bad *** and now i realize that the only reason i earned the title of MARINE was because i can take more physical punishment and pain than any normal person.

im crying typing this because i fell empty some what because all my faults have been a disease eating away at me, and i could have been doing so much more. my parents were told i had ADHD when i was 3 but when they went to sign me up for disability my parents were told i didnt have it any more. its so frustrating that i just want to scream. my bad hand writing, switching letters around in words when i write, and forgetting things. all of these have been the biggest things giving me trouble all these years and it could have been avoided.

I had ADHD as a little girl and was never treated either. Now as an adult my handwriting sucks, I can't keep a job and my self-esteem is shot. I've tried medications but they didn't help. I'm reading a book now about this disorder and it talks about how it isn't a disorder just a different type of brain functioning. I'll never be the person who can sit in one place and do detailed work - but so what?

I'll figure out something else to do and so will you. Detailed work is damn boring anyway.

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by MrWoods

So where to start.
The wifes in class so I've got time to type.

I am a marine and i just got told i have ADHD last week.
They started me on adderall 15mg twice a day. now im on 10mg three times a day. the 10mg doesnt seem to help me much but ill deal with that on Friday when i go back to the doc.

I guess its just hit me all at once. everything i know is a lie. i built who i am around one simple logic, that i am totally insain. before i joined i was fearless. finding my self praying for someone to pull a gun at the store i was a so i could get the chance to take them out. now i fear everything. higher ranking try to help by criticizing my faults and it just makes me fell week and cold. i joined to be a bad *** and now i realize that the only reason i earned the title of MARINE was because i can take more physical punishment and pain than any normal person.

im crying typing this because i fell empty some what because all my faults have been a disease eating away at me, and i could have been doing so much more. my parents were told i had ADHD when i was 3 but when they went to sign me up for disability my parents were told i didnt have it any more. its so frustrating that i just want to scream. my bad hand writing, switching letters around in words when i write, and forgetting things. all of these have been the biggest things giving me trouble all these years and it could have been avoided.

Hey I was never treated for adhd until age 27 and now Iam 28 female Iam on ritalin sr and that works very good not bad side effects It help me with my weight it let you know when your body had enough of eating.I so glad that I got treatment from it I can focus and concerate and not haveing to deal with being bored .

[MrWoods]

ive also noticed that people like me have depression cycles, bad hand wrighting, and me personally can be looking at a word and spell it wrong because i switch letters around in the word.

i feel better now. i realized im going through the 12 stages of grief, and the doc agrees. i see it i guess as me dieing and being reborn a new, as well as all the the opportunities missed.

[Ithurts]

Originally Posted by MrWoods

ive also noticed that people like me have depression cycles, bad hand wrighting, and me personally can be looking at a word and spell it wrong because i switch letters around in the word.

i feel better now. i realized im going through the 12 stages of grief, and the doc agrees. i see it i guess as me dieing and being reborn a new, as well as all the the opportunities missed.

I get that. I've been in denial about my issues for so long.

I thought I had only a small amount of depression and anxiety; all I'll need to do is take a couple of pills and it will go away. I'll go out in the world get a fantastic career and ...well...yeah..you know the rest.

So, now I'm struggling to keep a part-time job that really is below my intelligence level. But without the other cognitive and emotional factors intact I'm broken.

It is what it is.

[AdhdSucks]

Hello,
I know ADHD Sucks. I am suffering for it since my childhood. I hate to take any kind of medicine. But I tried Zoloft once, nearly 8 years ago . It completely killed my sexual drive. So I stopped taking it and suffering my own.

I took a 10day meditation course couple of years ago, called vipasana, it helped me lot to regain concentration and focus. I am attending another 10day course from 20th in Illinois. You can try it here. It is completely logical and rational.

dhamma[.]org

-peace

[vanyel22]

I'm 65 and found out about the ADHD at age 63. Thats why my nursing career was destroyed - I was fired from approx 15 jobs - Now I'm retired but still have to work 3 shifts a week - never worked anyplace long enough to get a pension. I was diagnosed by 5-6 therapists with depression. It did not occur to any of them that I had ADHD. I just went on Medicare last Friday - I will be going to a therapist soon and be able - for the first time to - discuss all my problems related to this disorder ( had no med. insurance for almost 2 years).

[Ithurts]

Originally Posted by vanyel22

I'm 65 and found out about the ADHD at age 63. Thats why my nursing career was destroyed - I was fired from approx 15 jobs - Now I'm retired but still have to work 3 shifts a week - never worked anyplace long enough to get a pension. I was diagnosed by 5-6 therapists with depression. It did not occur to any of them that I had ADHD. I just went on Medicare last Friday - I will be going to a therapist soon and be able - for the first time to - discuss all my problems related to this disorder ( had no med. insurance for almost 2 years).

Wow. I'm sorry. Some therapists really suck. ADD is so freaken frustrating.