[dpadilla89]

well, i have been diagnosed with multiple learning disabilities since about, 4th grade. Diagnosed with ADD/ADHD in 7th grade? yeah, 7th. Anyways, i'm in 10th grade right now and just transferred in October 2005 to a theraputic high school in NJ. i absoultely love it to death. :] Although, last year in my public high school i was in all special education classes and got good grades such as A's and B's. They didnt really teach me anything though in the classes, it wasnt on a high school level even though i wasnt on a high school level, and they didnt really care about the special ed. program. heh. How was i suppost to graduate then go off into the real world like college and now information??? Well, i'm now in the private theraputic high school and love it but then again, academically i am doing very poorly. Now, im getting C's and D's, and F's. not good!! I dont want to fail, especially go back to my district high school and suffer even more without any therapy for me there. i def. need it for myself. Anyways, i was thinking about summer school for a month that they do at my high school so i could pass and keep on attending there school. :]
My learning disabilities are horrible. I'm always suffering in class, and have no idea what is going on. Cant concentrate, cant comprehend ANYTHING, and words confuse me like crazzzyyy!! its unbelievable to me. and not all that fair either. When im reading, i really cant understand what i am actually reading or think about what the topic is about either. My IEP's say that i should NOT be on my grade level, im like on a seventh grade level. heh. i DO know that also, its just hard to accept. I can NEVER pay attention in class, i'm always failing or doing very poorly and then i suffer for it. I dont do my homework because even if i write it down, i end up forgetting where i wrote it or if i have any at all in the first place. heh. I dont know what to do, my moms always telling me im capable, which i know i am, but its a hellofa struggle for me 24/7. which really suckksss. :[ Well, i dont know what to do, because no one can understand i have severe learning issues, and now on my grade level-not even high school level, anddd..i dont want to go trasnferr outta my new high school either. that would stink for me. :[

Advice??

deb