[MikeDelta]

So I am currently on Adderrall XR 10 mgs for ADHD symptoms. *I like my doc because he believes in the smallest medication possible. He is undecided if its true adhd w/ depression, bipolar or neurological deficient (which he suspects most since my symptoms are atypical to him). So I've been on this for oh at least a month and a half or so and havent been doing too terrible until recently and im not sure what to make of it.

I generally dont take the drug on the weekends to give myself a break but it usually results in me being quite agitated or angry the for like the first day. This past weekend I had gotten three days off. Friday I spent most of the day running errands and shopping and was pissed off by a idiot driver and friend. I went to the gym to try and blow some steam off but it didnt help. I was just hating the world. Same thing for Saturday, ( I was really mad about a friend dumping me for their new girlfriend when we were suppose to celebrate easter together and then not even apologizing). Finally Sunday rolled around and I was feeling pretty good, went to easter sermon, fished and came home. Thats when things started getting crazy. Never in my life Have I felt the way i did Sunday night, it was almost surreal?

Both nights I didnt go to bed till late (I always stay up late) and it looked like this was looking the same way. I couldnt sleep and was getting even more wound up. After two hours of trying to sleep I got into this Eff Sleep, Sleep is stupid, mood (with my little sanity trying to remind me I had work in the morning). I decided at 12 am to go walk (about 2 miles) and get food from the gas station as I was STARVING all night. Then I got the wild Idea I needed to buy a RC car to play with, god knows why. So I hopped in my truck and drove to walmart at 2am and got a mini RC mustang. Although I wondered why the hell I was at walmart so early I didnt care all that much cause i felt good and I was having fun. When I say Good Im talking like Super Happy like UNREALISTICALLY TOO happy, like i was high. My friend I was texting was seriously concerned but I pretty much was like "Well Sorry but I cant do anything about it so Im just gonna have fun while I can!" Played with my car for about an hour. Then watched the Three Amigos cause its hilarious. Then around 430 I was cold so i wrapped up in a blanket and slept for about and hour and half before I had to get ready for work. Where I Wasnt all that tired but of course I was back on the XR medication. I felt physically tired but not mentally and nauseated from the food I ate. I ended up moving up my Pdoc appt to friday to discuss this matter. When I do sleep i usually hard but the hard part is falling and staying asleep.... I am not sure what to think of this? Roll into today Ive been a bit down, tired obviously though i go back and forth between tired feeling and super awake. I haven't had this problem previously....

I know I've been hit or miss on the boards. Been really busy.

[Maus5321]

Does this sort of thing happen with any sense of pattern? I took adderall XR for a very short time. It made me an unpleasant person to be around so I do not take that now. But I am just curious does the sort of thing you described over your weekend ever happened before? Is there any sense of you feel it coming but nothing you can do to stop it? Be it feeling down or up? Do you notice a difference for the better while the XR is working?

[MikeDelta]

Originally Posted by Maus5321

Does this sort of thing happen with any sense of pattern? I took adderall XR for a very short time. It made me an unpleasant person to be around so I do not take that now. But I am just curious does the sort of thing you described over your weekend ever happened before? Is there any sense of you feel it coming but nothing you can do to stop it? Be it feeling down or up? Do you notice a difference for the better while the XR is working?

Well Its hard for me to say. The Super happy stay up all night thing really hasnt ever happened per say. I always get angry when i dont take it which i account for withdrawals but I have always been a bit angry. It doesnt generally feel like i can control it especially with the anger and when depression sneaks up on me. My emotional regulation and disassociation was/is already been a problem that my t and I try to work through. Generally I think i do OK? on adderrall? I dont get in as much trouble at work but i do have a big "everything is stupid attitude".....

[Maus5321]

Originally Posted by MikeDelta

Well Its hard for me to say. The Super happy stay up all night thing really hasnt ever happened per say. I always get angry when i dont take it which i account for withdrawals but I have always been a bit angry. It doesnt generally feel like i can control it especially with the anger and when depression sneaks up on me. My emotional regulation and disassociation was/is already been a problem that my t and I try to work through. Generally I think i do OK? on adderrall? I dont get in as much trouble at work but i do have a big "everything is stupid attitude".....

I can sort of relate to the anger part. My anger/irritability is not because I am truly angry though. Just the way I have been conditioned over the years from my undiagnosed ADD. But not taking it for a day or two I can see how that could possibly contribute to making you more angry/irritable if your body is use to it. Although for me. The XR made me Irritable while taking it as well. So I stopped that med. The depression can also be a side effect of not taking the med for a few days. That is why the doctors taper you down slowly typically when they are weening you off the medication. I would try to talk to y our doctor about the symptoms you have described in your posts here as well. Sounds like the adderall does help you. What time do you take your adderall XR typically? Does it ever seem like it effects your sleep pattern?

[MikeDelta]

Originally Posted by Maus5321

I can sort of relate to the anger part. My anger/irritability is not because I am truly angry though. Just the way I have been conditioned over the years from my undiagnosed ADD. But not taking it for a day or two I can see how that could possibly contribute to making you more angry/irritable if your body is use to it. Although for me. The XR made me Irritable while taking it as well. So I stopped that med. The depression can also be a side effect of not taking the med for a few days. That is why the doctors taper you down slowly typically when they are weening you off the medication. I would try to talk to y our doctor about the symptoms you have described in your posts here as well. Sounds like the adderall does help you. What time do you take your adderall XR typically? Does it ever seem like it effects your sleep pattern?

usually around 5am or so. It bothered my sleep when i first started taking it but its dropped off but i dont have the best track record for sleeping in he first place