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To keep it simple, I could have ADHD.
I don’t like it’s a possibility but at least it would explain my behaviour, which is often described as annoying, weird and everything but normal. I’m 18 years now, but since I was little I’ve had ‘social’ issues. Something that happened this week made me decide to look for some ADHD facts and tests.
People have always told me I was too annoying. Annoying could mean immature behaviour or hyper activity. I had to re-do one year in elementary school because my behaviour was not advanced enough. I have been bullied because I was strange to the other kids. This however made me even more annoying. They often asked me if I had forgotten to take my pills or if I had ADHD.
In high school I still had the issue of not being able to normally interact with other people. Here a gym teacher even asked me if I had ADHD. People in my class often said I was too annoying and started to ignore me. The teachers noticed I had some sort of social problem and arranged social training for me. That biggest thing I learned there is to evaluate behaviour. If I weren’t sure whether I was too annoying, I would ask a classmate I trusted, and ask him what I did wrong.
In time I managed to keep myself in control. However, this is exactly what I failed to do earlier this week. I was kicked out of class during computer science because I kept walking around irritating people and keeping them from working. One of the things I did was switching off monitors, really immature for someone of my age and I regret I did it. I knew at that time I wasn’t really in control anymore, but it was hard to regain that control. My behaviour resulted in me getting kicked out of class, nearly literally. The teacher didn’t bother doing something, he mainly agreed with what the others did. Heck, I even agree with what they did. During my ‘annoyance’ they asked me again if I was tested for ADHD. Again I asked my friend if I went too far, and the answer was a simple ‘yes’.

Seeing this happening a lot of times (it happened before and still does) I decided to do the test here, where I was told I might possibly have moderate ADHD or ADD. My main issue is people normally don’t notice anything, only when I get bored and have a lack of concentration I sometimes start being annoying, or get to worse cases as mentioned above.
I can keep myself from being annoying most of the time. It’s like some sort of blockade, which prevents me from becoming annoying. Side effect is that people who normally don’t see me a lot wouldn’t notice this. Others, like my sister, imagine ADHD as something that causes kids to run around screaming and being uncontrollable. This makes it hard to tell her I think I might have ADHD because she doesn’t know my constant moving around, tapping and lack of sitting still might be symptoms of ADHD too.

Do you think this is just a social issue or this might be ADHD or ADD? I would like to hear it from more people before I’m actually going to try and find out, which involves telling certain people about my suspicions. I’m very uncertain what their responses would be.

Thanks for taking your time reading this

We can't really do diagnoses here, this is a support forum -- I think the quizzes all suggest that you talk over results with a mental health professional. Can you see one through school? Most schools have a counseling center or school psychologist if you're still in high school. Those people would be better equipped to help you than we are here -- though we're happy to support you through the asking/finding out phase and whatever comes after.

Candy

Problem is I won't be at high school anymore after my final exams in May. I don't really know where to go, or even when.

Hi Squig,
Welcome to Psych Central!

I really don't know the answers to your questions. I understand you to be saying at times you behave inappropriately. Other times you might want to behave inappropriately but you are able to control yourself. It sounds like you do need to find someone to talk to. High School can be a very stressful time and feeling unsure about yourself is very common. I hope you will talk to a teacher who seems sensitive or a guidance counselor and see if they can provide some direction. Perhaps one of the teachers who referred you for social training.
Meantime, feel free to come back here for support and share what's going on with you. I have found the people here very supportive.

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