[krisakira]

I am now having anxiety about an impulse I had today. I think the impulsiveness has to do with my ADHD. A few days ago I considered what I might get my husband for christmas, even though it's way early, not even thanksgiving! So I came up with it, and in case he is reading here, I don't want to mention what it is. But it is over $150. I had been saving up the money but I wasn't sure what to spend it on till now. I bought it on amazon tonight. Now I am scared it was a bad decision? So I am having anxiety that I made a mistake or something. But I still believe it's what I wanted to do. Now I'm having an irrational fear that I'm going broke. That I won't have enough money to get through the month. I say it's irrational cause I have done the math and I think I do have the money to get by till December. After all, the money I used was from my savings account. I just have this horrible feeling in my throat and chest and stomach and it won't go away! aaahhhhhhhh!

[deicher82]

I have the same feelings when I make a large purchase whether it be groceries or a Christmas gift. I also have ADHD and can identify with what you are feeling. Have you gone back and crushed your numbers again now that you have made the purchase? You said you used money from savings and that you had been saving up. It's my opinion that it is ok to not know what you are saving for and also that it is ok to start early on Christmas. Heck I start grabbing things here and there as early as July! If it were me I would take some deep breaths, ground myself in the moment and go back to my budget to see how the purchase impacted my budget in comparison to my debt through December. If u feel you may need that money it may not be too late to cancel the order. However if u still feel you will manage until next month consider keeping things as they are. That's what I would do. Hope this helps and I bet your husband will LOVE his gift! Keep us posted!