[thelonelydoyle]

First off I would like to say this is my first time using this site, so I hope I use it right. I am coming to this site for the first time for this very problem I have now.

So for the past few weeks, I have been worried/curious about me might having mania/bipolar through the things my friends say to me, and thoughts about myself. However after researching further I have come to realize that the effects of adderall may be creating a fake illusion of me having bipolar disorder.

I was diagnosed with add (not hyperactive) around 6 years ago. I take adderall my add, but I only take it when at school because I feel as if it is unnecessary to take it outside school. For the past three years I have been at school, very confident and feel happy, I will be someone and do great things, I am better than others. I just figured that this was who i am, I kid with high self esteem. Recently, on the weekends and after school, I have been less confident in things I usually feel very good about (grades, projects, myself in general)

Here is an example to help explain what I am trying to say

I have good grades, a good gpa, and others compliment me on it, and I myself feel very good about it. I sometimes fascinate about what I will do in life and how great I might be. Two weeks ago I completed segment 1 of drivers instructor. The instructor told me, and my parent personally, that I struggled at some things, and was overall below average then most of the other students, but I was still "passable" so I passed.

After I got home I went to my room, went to my bed. Then I started to reflect on it, and started squirming, rolling, panicking, crying. I thought about what if I can't improve my driving? what if I can't drive? then my thoughts led me to asking myself am I really as amazing as I think I am? Will I actually amount to anything? Am I even talented at anything? Do I even have the knowledge to succeed? After asking myself these questions, and upsetting myself very much about it, an hour and a half later I suddenly stopped thinking about it, and felt fine, and continued one not answering a single one of those questions.

This is not the first time something like this has happened, frequently I can be the most positive person ever, and then the most littlest things completely change my mood about myself and everything else around me. Recently I have been searching to find out more about why I am completely positive and confident, then neglect everything I once thought later on. This almost seems like signs of bipolar/mania depression, but I don't know for sure.

So I want to know if all of this is because of the adderall I take, or I may have a bipolar/mania disorder? or perhaps some kind of other disorder?

[BastetsMuse]

Originally Posted by thelonelydoyle

So I want to know if all of this is because of the adderall I take, or I may have a bipolar/mania disorder? or perhaps some kind of other disorder?

Adderall causes one heck of a change in behavior, and it's supposed to do that. Adderall helps me focus and get things done - and this is a good thing.

I also have ADD (inattentive type) and am bipolar as well. Even though there are similarities between ADD and bipolar, they are very different and Adderall is an excellent drug for ADD treatment.