What it was like and what its like now

Hi My names Patricia

and Im powerless over my ability to focus.

I may need drugs. Ive been trying to manage this for many years with no luck.
My life is managable as long as there are no parameters .

in other words. My life is like the elaphant and the ball.
Im clutter and disorganization all aorund with moments of hyperfocus in between.

My hyperfocous has at times lasted as long as eight hours working and It feels like two hours. Don't do that real often the eight hour . usually three .

I can loose lots of time in hyperfocus as well as trying to navigate the clutter because I loose things,

Lets not talk about drivers blinking thier lights at me while driving down the road .

I don't drink ,drug, or smoke anything. Maybe thats my problem.
I was pulled over by a cop last week . No ticket just a heads up.

I would love to hear what it was like for you before treatment.

Im hoping there are some adults like myself who have slipped through the cracks and identified whats going on and have gotten help .

If its as a teen thats okay as well . just so you remeber what it was like before and can describe how your life is better now.

Also did you go it alone or do you have help of family and friends or husband/ group.

also while Im here .any one have trouble remebering the past? I know its a product of PSTD which I know I have but this lack of focus is not that primarily and Im wondering if a life of distraction would lead one to not beable to remeber ,
make sense to me.

I can't remember last week let alone yesterday.

Thanks,
Patricia