[aidaleigh]

Hello everyone! I am new to this site and wanted to drop in and introduce myself.
I am a 34 year old stay at home mom to 2 wonderful kids age 5 and 6. I am married to a wonderful man that I have been with for 10 years.

I am in the process of an ADD diagnosis. Talking to my family dr beginning of June. He referred me for a psych concultation/ testing. He is sending the back to my family dr and I go to him on the 15th of July.

It has always been the running joke in among my friends and family that I have the attention span of a fly. I have always been like that. My mom has report cards from elementary school that comments say something like I was a very nice student but exessively talkative and day dreamed too much.
I was never a hyper kid so nothing was ever thought more about it.
It was not until recently that a friend asked if I had ADD. She went on to say that her friend was recently diagnosed with it and I remind her so very much of the other friend.
That is what got me thinking and researching. I was so surprised when I read the symptoms and traits of ADD. I was in tears!! Tears of joy. Finally something made sense! The way i act and think and behave finally had a reason. It was not becasue I was lazy or stupid or just didn't care. Unfortunately that was always what I thought about myself and I am sure others did too.
Every online test I have taken says definitely that it is ADD. So I will be surprised if the eval does not say it is ADD.
I have been diagnosed with depression several times in my life. (different doctors due to changing towns). I am wonderng now if it is depression really, but more just frustration with the ADD symptoms that I have been struggling with. I recently stopped taking my Wellbutrin. If I do get an ADD diagnosis, I want to be free of any other meds to really give the ADD meds a chance.

I am hoping to meet more people on here that are going thru similar struggles and hoping to get encouragement from those that have been diagnosed and are now leading happy and productive lives.

Thanks!

Krystal

[witchy]

I feel very similar to you. I have taken almost every anti-depressant out there and they all have failed to help. While I was on them I had secret suspicions they were making it worse. I may have been right. I finally gave up on them back in February. I am much better off since then, however still have issues. Now I am confused as to why I am better. Is it because I stopped the meds, or is it because I had just ended a gloomy, reclusive, brain-washing type relationship of twelve years two months prior to quitting the meds? Confused.

Anyway, I am recently studying ADD and pretty darn convinced I have that along with other things as well. I am starting to see where the ADD left untreated for 38 years may be a contributor to all the other mental problems I have faced over the years. Especially the depression, anxiety, addictions and self-medicating to self-esteem problems. Seems like the ADD may have just been the origins of the rest of my problems. That is what I am getting from my research and several weeks of being stuck in a hazy world of analyzing myself, personality, all significant events in my life right from the beginning. This seems like a long road trip to hell. I sure hope I make it back home soon and in one piece.

The absolute worst thing I am going through lately is the uncontrollable rewind and replay of every damned thing I say and do and how it affected me or others or how it sounded when I said it. Its like existing in another plane. I am very uncomfortable with this and cannot turn it off. Could it be a new OCD thing since I have worked virtually all OCD things out of my mind and life, causing this to surface? Or is that something to do with ADD?

Sorry, I am spouting here and I don't expect you to have the answers to my questions. Just thought maybe we could possibly relate.

Thanks,
Witchy