Diagnosis confusion

So I need some help to be honest, I am a bit confused...

My pdoc is convinced I am PDD-nos/Aspergers and ADHD and has been for some time and that it is causing me to be depressed and have mood swings (highs and lows) because of how i interact socially besides family life. I am now 20 years old

To be honest, I really dont... "get" or understand the diagnosis so I dont know if I should take him seriously or not. Like I have a hard time believing it? so i go back and forth, I dont know really

I can see it in some places, like: when i say things that are bit rude without realizing it or blurting out, My Aversion to touch, sensitivity to sounds and lights at times, my blunt expression (everyone tells me to smile, i just dont think to i guess). Resistance to change and things that make no sense, Particularly rules.

I wont lie I am a bit socially awkward and have a hard time adjusting with certain people. I am often harassed by certain coworkers for no particular reason other than I am different. I have a few that are understanding and I love working with them but I dont get to work with them anymore... I have a also have a hard time with authority and consider my self to be a be a free spirit (which does not work in the military). I dont like to listen to people I dont respect or listen to rules that dont make sense to me.

I haven't told anyone at work, and I know for a fact they wouldnt believe me. Because they never do not to mention they would probably think Ausitic = idiot which is certainly not true.
I am just told I am disrespectful, Obnoxious and have an Attitude problem. Which I dont see, Its just that I dont feel people who aren't respectful deserve it. People treat me like an idiot when I know I am smart, and dont begin to try and understand my point of view. I always chalk it up to the fact I cant explain things very well but i dont know...

Does it really take a awhile to comprehend a diagnosis ? I just feel like i cant warp my head around it.... Is there anyway i can explain this without people looking at me like I am two headed monster??? Cause I have some issues at work and guess I just want people to try and work with me. (Not that they will, i have little hope for that).

Yes, sometimes it takes awhile for a diagnosis to sink in. Not that the doctor couldn't be wrong, but sit with it a while and see if you think it fits then.

I don't think I would share this in the office setting. Too many people really judge those of us with mental illness. They are ignorant of the real issues and most don't care to learn.
Best wishes.

I'm always surprised that some people with AS and ADHD get diagnosed without proper testing. It shouldn't be a guessing game. I mean I needed my test to sort of prove I do have Asperger's. My doc wouldn't believe my ex doc thought so, he saw ZERO aspie traits in me. So I'm glad I wasn't in the hands of people who just took guesses about things that would affect my whole future.

Yeah I find that unusual too. When my PDoc suspected Aspergers, she referred me to a specialist clinic for a proper diagnosis and actually said she wouldn't do any further work with me until she knew for sure one way or the other because it would most likely alter how she would proceed. Turned out she was right, which is something, but I didn't really believe it until I saw it in writing from the specialist. It is a huge deal, it affects every aspect of our lives, it's not something that should come down to "well I'm pretty sure you do".

Just got my DX results today. I picked an expert ... an international expert... because I had to know for sure. For me, it was vital that I figured out why I was the way I was with stuff. So the DX is helping me answer that. Now I can stop being angry with myself for the bad social skills.

I think your DX is very personal. You can use it both to help you understand your world and yourself, but also use it to help others understand you IF needed.

I apologize to the original poster for this.

What is the difference between getting a diagnosis from a psychologist or psychiatrist? Is one really more qualified than the other? Is WAIS absolute?

Here in Ontario, Canada seeing a psychologist for ASD testing costs around $2000. Most people can't afford that so they have to resort to clinicians that are covered such as psychiatrists. All the ladies I know with Asperger's were diagnosed by a psychiatrist. Does that make them less Aspergerian?

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That's not what I meant, sorry if it came across that way. What I was meaning was that it's not the sort of thing that a "pretty sure" would really cut it for. It doesn't matter who it is that gives your diagnosis as such (provided they are qualified to do so), but it has to be a firm yes or no. We're not talking about the weather where "it might rain" is acceptable. Does that make sense?

Yeah I had a huge meltdown at work yesterday with some people I feel more or less threatened by. This is after I had a bit change of environment at work and one of them grabbed my arm and started yelling at me when I told them I didnt like to be touched. (meanwhile they were hugging me yesterday thinking theyd "fix" me). They basically told me that I was making up ***** and that I was a liar. Then another girl who wasnt involved in the situation but you know how gossip works,she bullies me and threatened me telling me not to tell anyone she hazes me cause i am liar.. I am pretty sure telling people to jump off a bridge is hazing. I was very upset by everything, I ve worked with these people for a while and it is always the same with them. They are very clique, gossipy, and rude. They think im a shtbag and have an attitude when I try to stand up for myself. Which makes me more upset because I dont feel this is something I'd make up. It things make more sense to me.

It is okay Rosska I am not upset. I knew what you were saying. I cant remember, I think he is a psychiatrist, this dudes been practicing for ever and is older than dirt. I did have testing done but it is was all like Nuerological testing? Everything came back good. There was a few slow areas attributed my ADHD and we did the MMPI which just said Mood disorder NOS.

I am just frustrated in general, when people tell me im lying or making up stuff then I feel like i cant believe myself and hate myself. I dont know what to think other than the doctor wouldnt continue to treatment if he thought i didnt have an issue. Why do people get so hostile if you tell them you are different?

It sounds like some of your coworkers have azzhole disorder NOS.

haha you dont know how much this made me feel better.