[muffinhead]

The title pretty much says it all, and I'm feeling pretty bad right now.

[CANDC]

Sorry you are suffering from depression. There is an article that talks about this subject.
https://www.google.com/url?q=http://...iYaPyYpWn_J7qw

Glad you are part of our community. Besides being an active participant in helping oneself at Psych Cental, many people also help support each other by replying to other people's posts. Many people who are actively involved in Psych Central find it helps take them out of their own problems to develop empathy for others. And their problems are more manageable the more they help others.

Many people here at PC find they can share these feelings and what they are going through with the confidence that people go through similar things and can empathize. So many forums are offered as well as Chatrooms (after you have 5 posts or comments on others posts). Depression chat meets on Thursday night at 9pm EST and Anxiety Wednesday at 8PM.

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[-jimi-]

I've never been able to self manage depression so no good answers.

But for when I have felt worse but not really in any full blown depression, I've tried to disconnect from people, reconnect with nature, take away as many stressors and impressions as possible, also I try to go easy on the areas where I waste the most energy and take all shortcuts there are.

Conserving energy is a must for me if I don't feel right.

Originally Posted by muffinhead

The title pretty much says it all, and I'm feeling pretty bad right now.

The last thing I did, which I should have did from the beginning, was to stop laying all the blame at my own door for every single thing that was going wrong and to realize that ASD leads to misunderstanding and miscommunication between me and others, so that was a large part of it, and not something "wrong" with me, for which I need to take all the blame completely. Also, I had to stop feeling ashamed about who I am. Once these shifts in mindset occurred, the depression began fading. But, I also have to admit, The Lord had a major role in healing me. I told Him I don't want medication, and He must have agreed, because it started healing without meds. The major thing for me was letting go of a traumatic experience, which was impossible for me to do on my own because I was trapped inside of it. So for me, He was the one who "handled" it. Different people will have different external sources of help for problems you cannot deal with on your own. Usually this is why depression will stay, it can morph to a thing outside your control, or is triggered by something over which you have little control.

What I mean by all of this is, there is something at the core of it all that needs external help to solve. Then there are small things combining daily to keep the depression going, in the same way any bad habit/addiction keeps going. Those things you have to break down one by one, most common being negative thoughts about yourself, guilt about something, etc. They are like the cigarettes that keeps a nicotine addiction going, or the coffee that keeps the caffeine addiction going. The core thing is the actual thing that started the addiction, the little daily things are keeping it going. These will need different degrees of self and external help, and is different for each person. Each of us needs to find what works for us.

[catnip123]

I wish I had a good suggestion for you but I don't. I deal with both problems sometimes doing better and sometimes not. My T has told me that the usual CBT things that work for other people don't work at all for me. I think being an Aspie makes dealing with depression very frustrating

[Anonymous37919]

I am still obligated to see this supervision officer. He is supposed to be doing a court report on Friday, as the sentence has been deferred yet again. It never ends.

Even after the case ends (again), I will have to see this David guy for, God only knows how many more months to follow. And I am saying nothing to the man. If he needs to know if I've moved house, then fine. Anything else - I am rightfully not going to be divulging my habits to him. These people are just informants. Anything you say can be jotted down and used against you. Do not mistake them for people to unload your melodrama onto. Believe me.

I really don't see the point in this anyhow, as my opinion remains unchanged. I've been stitched up and I had nobility throughout it all. I've just got home after being fully committed just for apologizing in a sincere manner, and you should have heard what the PF was saying in the courtroom. Now they're going to take out a restraining order in regards to Sara's boyfriend. They were talking about remanding me for another 2 weeks and I was thinking, screw that. The G4S people never bothered to bring my stuff with me to court after I bagged it. It's not fair to oppose my liberty because they lied, I am not meant to contact them and the company they work for is full of backstabbers.

The women can use the law as a legal trump card all they want, but they treated me unfairly in the first place over something silly, then everyone on their end lied and turned on me. Of course anyone would be saddened if they had received "care" from these people for several years, especially if one felt they had developed a connection of some sort. They would likely want answers as to where things went sour.

The sad truth is, anything caregivers do is just for a pay check. My happiness and frame of mind means bugger all to them anyway. I am easily replaced.

My own lawyer said that my bail address isn't suitable because my mother has 'mild learning difficulties' (untrue, by the way) and they thought I should be sent to another town. My mother is not happy about this. If I had shut up and not protested yesterday in court, I reckon I would have been on a bus back to Barlinnie, by the way. So I am lucky.

[muffinhead]

Originally Posted by Peter A

I am still obligated to see this supervision officer. He is supposed to be doing a court report on Friday, as the sentence has been deferred yet again. It never ends.

Even after the case ends (again), I will have to see this David guy for, God only knows how many more months to follow. And I am saying nothing to the man. If he needs to know if I've moved house, then fine. Anything else - I am rightfully not going to be divulging my habits to him. These people are just informants. Anything you say can be jotted down and used against you. Do not mistake them for people to unload your melodrama onto. Believe me.

I really don't see the point in this anyhow, as my opinion remains unchanged. I've been stitched up and I had nobility throughout it all. I've just got home after being fully committed just for apologizing in a sincere manner, and you should have heard what the PF was saying in the courtroom. Now they're going to take out a restraining order in regards to Sara's boyfriend. They were talking about remanding me for another 2 weeks and I was thinking, screw that. The G4S people never bothered to bring my stuff with me to court after I bagged it. It's not fair to oppose my liberty because they lied, I am not meant to contact them and the company they work for is full of backstabbers.

The women can use the law as a legal trump card all they want, but they treated me unfairly in the first place over something silly, then everyone on their end lied and turned on me. Of course anyone would be saddened if they had received "care" from these people for several years, especially if one felt they had developed a connection of some sort. They would likely want answers as to where things went sour.

The sad truth is, anything caregivers do is just for a pay check. My happiness and frame of mind means bugger all to them anyway. I am easily replaced.

My own lawyer said that my bail address isn't suitable because my mother has 'mild learning difficulties' (untrue, by the way) and they thought I should be sent to another town. My mother is not happy about this. If I had shut up and not protested yesterday in court, I reckon I would have been on a bus back to Barlinnie, by the way. So I am lucky.

Peter A, I don't see how this relates to my original question

[Anonymous37919]

I don't deal with my depression and no, I will never take meds to overcome the anxious feelings. I just manage it by listening to music.

I think it's hard to juggle all the thoughts and plans, which is all depression related and it's tough to hide it. There's just ways to "switch off" but it can just be brief.

Does anyone else think 2015 has sucked?

[daynrand]

muffin ~ I'm so sorry you're going through depression on top of everything else. I can truly say "I know how you feel!" Depression has been with me, on & off, (although I had no name for it then) since childhood, and has been an almost constant companion since I was attacked and raped at the age of 16. I'm now 60, and I guess this might sound like a cop-out, but honestly, if it becomes too oppressive, I cannot stress how important it's been in my life to have a good psychiatrist who can prescribe the appropriate medications.

Depression is not simply a "mental" problem. It is a very real physical illness as well. If it reaches a certain point where it cannot be managed with all the mind control methods out there, there is nothing wrong with being treated for it medically. It does not mean that you have to stay on antidepressants for the rest of your life, either. Maybe you just need enough time to get back on balance, so you can then use other methods to deal with it.

So, OK, I'm not merely singing the praises of medical science as the cure-all, but I hear the desperation in your voice, and I also hear and know the pain all too well. And what works for one doesn't necessarily work for another. I was blessed 7 years ago to be referred to an incredible psychiatrist who continued to work with me until he found the right combination to fit, and it literally changed my life. I'd been on antidepressants before, but never had anybody worked so hard to find the right one(s). I've had half a decade now to heal from a lifetime of pain, panic, anxiety and depression so deep that I honestly wonder that I lived through it. But I did & I'm grateful to be here now. I want you to have that healing. You need it. You deserve it.

I'm not saying I know the answers for you, or even that definitely you need medications. But I do think you should find out if it might at least help to ease you into a place of equanimity where you can find enough rays of hope to be able to move up and out of that pain.

God bless and keep you in Peace & Warmth, my dear.