Fellow Aspie's: What are areas you struggle with?

Maybe my wee sister can help with my extras work. Like say they needed people for a bar scene, my sister likes drinking in bars but you have a pretend drink like prop wine which you do not consume at all. But to be an extra means long takes and extras generally go unaccredited. Think about it. You cannot really credit everyone. To be an extra in say, a battle scene might be tiring but at least it is exciting and sitting around might just be boring. But my sister would need a digital camera for her face and full body shots since Universal Extras say mobile phones create blurriness and you are better off in a studio as it conceals shadowing in the light. We will get there.

Yes! I'm constantly doing repairs to peoples computers and never charge a thing. The whole time they complain about how long it takes - viruses do that to electronics, dummy - get made fun of for being a nerd and a geek and then, at the end, asked why I can't do this and this daily thing better or as well as I fix computers. -_-

I seem to suffer from executive dysfunction (EDF).
Though I'm also a chronic procrastinator (which is apparently a symptom of EDF). I'm procrastinating studying for the two tests I have tomorrow as I write this in fact. Don't worry, I've already washed all the dishes and everything is neatly hole-punched and sorted in my binder.

But seriously. When I'm writing papers or doing some significantly long project, I can crank out 5 pages in a hazy Panic-Monster-induced sitting the night before but when it's time to write the conclusion I'm suddenly stuck and I'd rather do anything but write that simple little paragraph, and even the Panic Monster isn't able to get me to put in as much effort as I should. All that needs to be done is summarize the important parts of the paper (tell the reader what I've told them). And I simply can't. This applies in both have-to-do's and leisure-time writings

I journal every so often when dealing with emotions and existential life crises and there comes a point where I've written down everything that's in my head, drawing conclusions as I go along, and a conclusion paragraph would wrap things up nicely but then I abruptly shift to not wanting to write anything else at all. So it just ends abruptly and it's probably pretty jarring.

It might be a fear that writing the conclusion paragraph signifies that I have nothing more to say on the topic when in fact there might be more to say about it.
"But what if I come up with something that's relevant to this writing? If I already have a conclusion I feel like I can't update it or my views on the topic."
"I'll just write a separate journal entry anyway because that's what I do. Besides, it's a good way to track my attitudes over time." Or "It doesn't matter because I'm turning this in in nine hours."
"BUT WHAT IF???"

Actually the discussion of EDF might warrant its own topic because I just found a really great link detailing some symptoms of EDF in the context of schooling and I can feel a wall of a post/journal coming on.
http://www.schoolbehavior.com/disord...e-dysfunction/

I have had bad anxiety ever since I had a major panic attack around this time in 2009. I've constantly had adrenaline rushes and feel disconnected. But at least before when I had all those workers, I could take my mind off things by i.e playing snooker. Well, I have a greet away to myself now that it's all over. It has been off putting for me as I think I will not trust people like them again. But I am stuck due to anxiety. Either way, I feel a bit browbeaten and I have court again next Tuesday too.

Depression, anxiety, paranoia (if you don't understand people, how do you know their motives are good?), sensory issues, OCD, dyspraxia (which makes it impossible for me to drive a car). Wow, after reading all of this now I'm depressed again.

I'm not back in court until 17 December and I ain't even allowed online, yet I defy their authority and do it anyway. How crap is my life?

They confiscated my mobile phone which sucks because I am agoraphobic and rely on music when I go out places. Not having any music makes it harder to be relaxed at home, outside or anywhere really. And not having any real social life makes life feel very dull and empty. Yet like we keep saying, everything is too much hassle. And yeah, getting a non supported flat is a tall order in itself. We also spoke of the fact to be afforded acting jobs, you needed to have been an actor, and my anxiety will prevent me from having success anyway.

Sadly, despite what we agreed about caregivers not being trustworthy, they may be my only key to getting a flat and a life. You see, I am broke. I'm stuck with my family and it is not great at theirs. And I had my laptop taken away and my other things, and I don't even have an iPod. Plus, you need to hook that up to a computer to sync your media anyway.

And I have to see my supervisor today at 2. It still irritates me about those workers as I never got closure. But they don't want to know me any more and there is the court order, the home curfew rule and all this other crap to deal with. I'm having to start again and I pine away for them, which I cannot help. When you miss someone or regret the past, you cannot stop dwelling on it.

I think you need to try and get that reversed somehow. You need to be online because this is where all your support is coming from. How stupid are these people? You're not allowed to have support workers, and you're not allowed to go online. So, where the hell are you supposed to get support then?

I'm sorry man, that sucks. How long is it for? You may just have to wait it out. That's something I've learned unfortunately, sometimes you have to wait stuff out.

Ah man, I'm sorry, I can relate to that, not getting the closure you need. It's hard. The only thing that seemed to work for me was just time. Three years later, eventually the memory just faded, and the situation became minimized in my head. I'd love to be able to give you a better answer for this one, but unfortunately, I don't have one. I mean, you know yourself the struggles I went through.

I wish I had the money bro, I would love to help you out to just move you out of that whole place you're stuck in and help you settle somewhere else, somewhere new. I'd like the same thing for myself too. Just get out of the places where we are stuck. Change of scenery and time is all that seems to work. Especially leaving the actual people behind who are part of the problem. Just leave them so far behind.

They keep me in the dark about things, but from my small understanding of what the judge said yesterday at the hearing, it is up to my supervisor to allow me online. He does not know the forums I visit so as long as I try not to be too revealing and from now on use X, Y, Z type terms.

Well, I also have a social worker but again what I gathered was no support service means no help, as I think they just help people funded for that help. Maybe this is what another support company were referring to in a phone conversation recently. They said that I'd have to be reassessed as I've had an absence from any real support. Remember, that last lot betrayed me and I ended it. Seems I may have to have some help, but only from same sex workers. But then you get attached to them if they are nice, and although it is against their rules, you can become closer than is allowed in their professional capacities.

Oh, darn. This supervisor also prepares court reports and if I say I've been online without his consent, it's back to the slammer for another breach of bail. You have to be careful all of the time.