[Anonymous37919]

The reason I quit it was because they were only giving me 6 hours a week with 2 young guys, who did not have flexible hours to provide for me. There is nothing wrong with them as people, but one of the guys is kind of quiet and does not say much. They just didn't suit me.

The idea was that I wanted to do extras work in videos, but with one of the workers attending with me at such events giving notice, because I suffer from anxious bouts. However, they just could not 'chop and change' the times, so they were not much cope.

Well anyway, my support was set up through a social worker, and he has to share certain information with a supervisor because I landed up getting into trouble, resulting in me having to be in court, and the judge assigned someone to monitor me, who I have to see at his office every couple of weeks, as the order I am on runs out later this year. He is supposed to put in "recommendations" to the court for passing sentencing, and all that rubbish.

Unfortunately, the agency could not arrange better hours to suit me due to not having much staff, and so I thought it wasn't worth keeping it any longer. They weren't going to provide female care workers due to what occurred with that other agency, so it meant there was hardly anybody around to work with me, as they claim there are more female caregivers than men. I'd dispute that, but whatever.

Apart from that, I got the impression the supervisor was attempting to use them as his "watchdogs" and kind of act as spies. For example, I'm only supposed to be online if I get supervised, so I had to use my shifts to waste time going on these acting recruitment websites to pretend to look for jobs, when I could do that in my own time, so I felt the shifts were boring and pointless. But he said ages ago I could go to a library or elsewhere to get online, then he visited my parents' house to see what my living arrangements are like, and he spotted a laptop on the table in the kitchen, which actually isn't mine, but the whole family uses it.

Since I told him I feel nervous being in public places since I am already agoraphobic, he probably figured I was still using the Internet at home and so he opposed against me being able to freely use it. The court confiscated my laptop, my mobile phone and some other devices, which I won't get back for about another 7 months. They also still have my older laptop from 2014 as well, and they don't want me contacting the former support workers that I have restraining orders over.

I'm not happy about quitting my support, as it can be hard to find replacements. But they just seemed like more monkeys collecting peanuts, and I just thought my supervisor would use them as informants. The last time I saw one of them, I kind of got the impression he was looking at the screen and jotting stuff on his phone at times, as he kept on pulling out his phone pretty much every time I changed to another website, but he never said anything. It's just that I seen his reflection on the screen.

Who needs that? So I got rid of them. The social workers are all knobs too.

hugs and i wish you the best

[Anonymous37919]

Thanks.

I did not want to quit my support, but things change. No matter what, I will always pine away for the people I miss.

Things are complicated here. Let's just leave it at that. In closing, I ended my support because I could not be sure if they were going to act as snitches for my supervisor. It is the law, yes. However, I just did not see them giving me the help I sought out, so it was better to give it up before it got going. Their hours just weren't ideal.

Hopefully, everybody understands the complicated nature of my ramblings.

[AutismParenting]

wishing you the best

[Anonymous37919]

Thanks. I'm still unsure of how to find support workers who can provide the support I want.